tags.

tagged by VicKi Low. anyway, this tag looks fun. so, bleh about maths first and do this. X3

-You-

Firstname: Melanie
Nickname: Mooi, Miaow, Mel
Name you wish you had: i'm happy with my name. <3
What do People normally Mistake your Name as: malanie, melannie, melany, minachi.. =.=
Birthday: 2nd Nov
Birthplace: damansara, PJ.
Time of Birth: i forgot.
Single or Taken: single and available.
Zodiac Sign: scorpio.


-Your Appearance-

How Tall are You: erm. slightly taller than average.
Wish You were Taller: no. if i'm taller, it's gonna be tougher finding a taller bf. >.<
Eye Color: dark brown.
Eye Color You want: erm. none actually. haha.
Natural Hair Color: dark brown.
Current Hair Color: copper brown. dyed me hair.. ^^
Short or Long Hair: short.
Ever Dye your Hair a Bizarre Color: tak pernah. and i don't plan to. hehe.
Last Time you did Something Dramatic with your Hair: dyed my hair? hahaha.
Glasses or Contacts: both.
Do you wear Make-up: yes but rarely.
Ever had Hair Extensions: nah...
Paint your Nails: occasionally. with all the bizarre colors.


-In the Opposite Gender-

What Color Eyes: me dont care.
What Color Hair: me also dont care.
Shy or Outgoing: anything.
Looks or Personality: personality. but at least have a bit of looks la. haha.
Sexy or Cute: either one will do.
Serious or Fun: both of them. make sure it's balanced.
Older or Younger than You: definitely older.
A Turn On: height. and deep yet cheeky eyes.
A Turn Off: tendency to overcontrol. and arrogance.
Flowers or Chocolates: chocs! i can never resist chocs.
Pepsi or Coke: both.
Rap or Rock: rock is my cup of tea!
Relationship or One Night Stand: relationship. duh.
School or Work: does undergrad life count?
Love or Money: ahh. sweet sweet love will always be better than the crisp smell of moneh.^^
Movies or Music: 80% music, 20% movies.
Country or City: city.
Sunny or Rainy Days: depending on my mood.
Friends or Family: both are very important.

-Have you Ever-

Lied: yes.
Stole Something: ONCE.
Smoked: no.
Hurt Someone Close to You: yes. haihz.
Broke Someone's heart: think so.
Had your Heart Broken: many times.
Wondered What was Wrong with You: of course.
Wish you were a Prince/Princess: nah.
Liked Someone who was Taken: yes. once. or twice. guess its my luck.
Shaved your head: ehh no. i cant. i will NEVER.
Been in Love: yes. yes. yes.
Used Chopsticks: yep.
Sang in the Mirror to Yourself: eh. im tonedeaf.


-Favorites-

Flower: roses. white roses.
Candy: lollies..
Song: i'm a music junkie so i have an almost infinite list of favs.
Scent: perfumes.
Color: turquoise, white, black.
Movie: don't ask. i have too many.
Singer: refer to the movie section.
Word: wtf. wth. huh? shit.
Junk Food: erm, twisties? hehe.
Website: a lot.
Location: my bedroom. haha.
Animal: cats! hamsters! anything cute!

Ever cried over someone: yes.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: erm. my blurness?
Do you think you're attractive: at least i'm not anorexic. haha.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: nah. fairytales only exist in dreams.
Do you play any sports: ....no.. except stoning.=.=


The rules: -

1) Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2) List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1. I'm a girl
2. I like to sleep.
3. I taught maths since last week.
4. I am very sleepy.
5. My fingers are aching.
6. My stomach muscles are strained.
7. Why tomorrow got exam?
8. My handphone rosak.=.=

I tag

1. Jerusha
2. Angeline
3. Dione
4. Samantha
5. Kwanyi
6. Any guy
7. Any girl
8. Anybody who reads this blog.

-mel-

dear vicKi.

{credits to Sam for the pic}

dear vicKi Low a.k.a miss monkey:

sorry for this overdue bday post. was supposed to do this yesterday but was kinda ill. >.<



the characteristics of miss mon*ahem* VicKi Low..
1) has a smile literally plastered on her face 24/7.
2) has a very addictive laugh.
3) her face can turn into tomato red in less than 5 seconds.
4) her blog is so happy-go-lucky, it's impossible not to smile after reading her posts.
5) she has A HUGE appetite. VERY HUGE. and she still can remain skinny. what a marvelous metabolism.6) cupcakes, we all like cupcakes eh, kiki?
7) she makes people warm and mushy inside, no matter how emo/angry they are.
8) there are so many things about her that's made out of sugar, spice and everything nice. even words can't describe how much I love this big sistah. <3

anyway, thanks for bringing a rainbow to our lives, kiki!

HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY!
xD

-mel-

hyperness overrated.

today i'm hyper. and normally it can mean two things.
1) i'm stressed.
2) i'm getting a fever SOON.

well, the symptoms arised in the beginning of today's maths replacement class. believe me, i tried to concentrate in class. i tried. in the end, it failed, likE USUAL. i'm starting to think i got attention deficit disorder or whatever similar naming disorder. (CHOI!)

so, to channel my hyperness into something else, i rummaged into my classmates' pencil box. i explored every nook and cranny of the small space to my heart's content. and yes, i discovered new stuffs.
1) a charcoal chalk (is that what it's called?) costs RM5.50 in Popular. WTH. that's the same price as a normal chap fan in SP Corner.
2) guys do have PINK mechanical pencils.
3) some guys have neater pencil boxes than girls. serious.

then, i turned into the next activity; took a magnet outta my clip and experimented with every surface available to see whether it sticks. now, here's the list of succesful experiments.
1) CS's specs rim.
2) the tiny metal thing near my hp's camera.
3) my hp's screen.
4) shuli's motorola hp.
5) the shiny part at my mechanical pencil.

soon, i was bored. so, i took a piece of tissue, and wrote down all the curse words and normal exclamation terms. then, i translated them into BM. For example..
1) holy shit! (heard MH saying out loud, so gt the inspiration)
----> tahi suci!

2) what the hell!
----> apa neraka itu?

3) piss me off (shuli's idea)
----> kencing saya "off"? (cant figure it out)

4) what the f***?
----> apa pukima itu?(http://pgoh13.free.fr/dico_answer.php)

5)mother f***ing asshole
----> dubur pempukima ibu (omg that sounded so wrong)

etc..

so most of the time i giggled excessively till my face felt hot. oh my.
am i getting loco?
/.\
btw, i tortured mh's cheeks today. haha. the torturing will not stop here. haha.

-mel-

bahasa jiwa bangsa.

pada hari ini, saya, vicKi dan dione telah mencipta satu ilham yang sangat bagus.
kami akan berblog dalam bahasa malaysia pada hari ini SAHAJA.
tidak tahu kenapa secara tiba2 kami sangat bersemangat patriotik.
oleh itu, sekarang adalah giliran saya untuk berblog pasal hari saya yang sangat bosan.

hari ini saya banyak berbatu (stoning) dalam kelas kerana tak cukup tidur. semasa pensyarah matematik tengah menulis formula2 yang saya sendiri tak faham, minda saya sudah terbang ke tanah mimpi. jadi, saya tidak dapat menyerap apa2 dalam kelas itu.

pada waktu petang pula, rumah takda elektrik. hancur mampus kantoi tidur saya. jadi, apa mau buat? saya pujuk mak saya pergi jalan2 dekat taman. lepas itu balik dan telepon TNB. mereka cakap bekalan elektrik hanya kembali dalam masa 3 jam.

apa nak buat?

saya terpaksa belajar psikologi dengan menggunakan lampu suluh sambil digigit nyamuk2 jahanam. saya berasa sangat marah sehingga saya mencucuk nyamuk yang mati dengan pensel tekan saya. >.< sekarang bekalan elektrik sudah pun kembali. dan saya boleh berblog.

ingatlah. bahasa jiwa bangsa.

malaysia boleh.

ketawa luar suara besar sambil bergulling kat atas lantai sehingga buntut terjatuh keluar. (lolrofllmao)




-mel-

geekiness and synesthesia...

28% Geek

ehhhh.
am i the geekiest in the gang? >.< 47%

its pink, and it has a nice name for a quiz.
oh well.

-mel-

Restricted Access.

oi. until like that ah? /.\
that means "kids" can't read my blog. /.\
anyways, credits to Sam for this quirky application.

here are the other apps i tried, and its kinda cute..
273 WATTS Body Battery Calculator - Find Out How Much Electricity Your Body is Producing -

Your Body is Producing 273 Watts!

This is 9% MORE wattage than the average person

• You could light up 3 light bulbs
• You could power 68 iPods
• You could power 1 Xbox 360
• 4 of you would be needed to keep a refrigerator running

chuahsiewmooi.blogspot.com

WANTED FOR THE MUSHY BLOGGING of an UNRULY HORSE

$2600

What's Your Blog Wanted For?

-mel-

relax, another last minute/random post.

yes, i need to relax. i have been realizing that my shoulders tend to tense up subconsciously and my forehead frequently scrunches up into a frown.

why is that happening?

maybe because of maths? or the fact that my mid term psychology test is around the corner and i didnt study one shit? or maybe because of assignments? OR MAYBE i just need to unwind a hundred knots in my body?

dang, i seriously need to take a chill pill. FAST,

you see, that's one of my weaknesses. i easily tense up. which is not a good thing actually. in fact, it can disrupt my health. so.. to counter it, what should i do?

taking yoga classes will do me good, but i'm not like that indian taukeh who can watch english/chinese/tamil/malay shows in that Astro Max advertisement and always say "I GOT TIME!". hell no, i'm not that free, ok?

then, maybe having some aromatherapy scents in my room might help. i have the Ambi Pur thingy in my room, but i have to buy the refill. so, that will be in my shopping list for now.

i should also test this deep breathing exercise. just take a few deep breaths and release your tension. seriously, i think i'll need this for my guitar classes cuz you have to relax in order to play a classical guitar properly. mind you, classical guitars are quite different than acoustic ones. in classical, you pluck. in acoustic, you strum. classical guitars have a more disciplined posture, which takes time to get used to it.

hahaha. yeah. relax.

and i have to stop being emo. start having a life for once, ya know. everyone has problems, so if they can overcome it, why can't i? true rite, guys?

yeah.

as for dieting, its tough. i don't think i can get used to it, so best i just stick with the smaller portions and 30 mins of treadmill daily. at least its better than nothing. :D i can't just crash diet like that cuz without carbs, i get very temperamental, giddy, emo and all the negative feelings that you can think of. (thats too overexagerrating eh?)

so, NO CRASH DIETING FOR ME.

the results will come out slowly but with consistent effort, I CAN DO IT.

JUST DO IT. NIKE.
hahahahahha.

i forgot the Adidads motto though, hahahhahahah!

well.. my dad had went for an emergency meeting in the headquarters at 10pm. i was like WTH, so late also got meeting??!! dunno what's the issue though. since the political tsunami had landed Msia, who know what might happen to this country from now on. economy-wise, msia is gonna have a tough time. that's what my dad said. if the goverment and the opposition don't cooperate for the better, msia is going down into a big shithole. our status will drop into a third-world country, which is something i don't want AT ALL.

hahaa.

anyway, this is one of the most random posts of mine. dunno why i had a flurry of words coming outta my mind and into this post. >.<

-mel-

tattoos and my blog's worth.

My blog is worth $1,693.62.
How much is your blog worth?

got this from vicKi's blog. my blog pun ada harga punya ka? hahahahahah.

anyways, the tattoo that i'm gonna get would be either the chinese character/kanji of "love" or "dream".

Dream. why "dream"? because i'm a daydreamer. i escape the real world by daydreaming. comes in handy during boring lectures/tutorials.
as humans, we are allowed to dream. big dreams, small dreams.because of these dreams, they make us HUMAN.
just imagine a life without dreams.
imagine a life where daydreaming doesn't exist.
hard to imagine, right?

Love. now, there are two versions here and i don't know how to differentiate them, so help me please! XD
why "love"?
love is the driving force of our lives.
without love, the world will be a very very cruel place.
well, this tattoo means a lot to me.
it reminds me to love God.
to love my family.
to love my friends.
and most of all, to love myself.
i took the knife once, and it was a terrible experience. very terrible. thank God i didn't push the knife deeper into my wrists.
or God knows what will happen to me that time.
come to think about it, it was such a silly thing to do, you know, take the knife out of guilt.
but see the bright side. now, i see the world at a different light.
i feel grateful to be alive.
yeah. after breaking up with my ex, i felt..free.
that relationship was one hell of a roller coaster ride.
still, i learned a lot. experienced a lot. made me into the person i am now.
:)

okay! stop emoing now!

lets come back to the topic!

hehehehe.

now, i have to save money first. currently i'm cracking my head on how to cut down expenses. maybe less shopping. and less expenditures of food. (SP mixed rice damn mahal sial babi!)
cannot go to m&m's cafe often la. (chicken chop=rm12)
must also control my nailpolish fetish(^^) or not all hopes of saving money will fly out of the window.

well, have to ignite the accountant side of me. i think.
well, maybe not.
>.<

-mel-

Bananas.

first try: too curly!!
second try: ok lah..

Credits to Kwanyi for coming up with the idea of iBanana. and thanks again for your credits in ur blog! *smileymonster*
so, these are the n00b-slash-amateur punya iPod ads. used paint, so sorry for the crappy pic.
banana picture taken from DeviantArt.

if u wanna use them, remember to credit me. *HUGEGRIN*

-mel-

iMalas

yes, i'm damn lazy to do my Maths. yes, it's derived from the brand iPod. no, i don't have an iPod. and yes, i wish to have an iPod.

anyways, i just have to share the wonders of mock iPod ads. they are miracles from Heaven to brighten up your day. to be honest, i'm fricking obsessed with them. DeviantArt has tons of pics with the iPod ad concept, so i'm a very very happy lass today.


presenting you.. the iPod ad craze!


























kudos to DeviantArt for making my day. now, if only i can have one of these ads on my t-shirt...

-mel-

guitars here i come.

HELL YEAH! ME FIRST GUITAR LESSON THIS COMING SATURDAY!

WEEEE!!

now, it's a beginners course, so i'm gonna learn the basics like the six strings etc etc. they will help me get a Yamaha guitar for me which costs around rm390 (>.<) since they emphasize on the benefits of having a branded guitar. oh yeah btw, the tutor is a guy. it's a one-on-one class. once a week, four times a month for rm75. wellll.. feeling pretty bad actually because of the price. but my parents are okay about it, so THANK YOU MOMMY AND DADDY!

WEEEEEEEEEEE!

mechanical butterfly and guitars.

you see, i'm really mad about two things. the first being a Bleach fanfiction titled "Mechanical Butterfly."

forgive my inner Bleach fangirl if i tend to overreact about this fanfiction. simply speaking, Bleach guys are hot eventhough they are not real. (rite, sherry? -.^)

now, what's this story about?

it's a fluff between Inoue Orihime, a girl from the good side being captured by the bad boss (Sousuke Aizen), and Wonderwice Margera, one of Aizen's soldiers (arrancars).

well... for those who doesn't watch Bleach, hope that intro helps.

it's like a relationship between prisoner and captor. got it?

anyways, the reason why i really LOVE this fanfiction is because of its ability to make you feel REALLY good and mushy inside. since being captured by a badass boss into his miserable fort is really depressing, this Wonderwice guy brought colors back into Inoue's world, eventhough he's on the bad side.

forbidden love is strangely attractive eh?

macam Romeo and Juliet.

haha.

anyways, here is the link.
Mechanical Butterfly

haha.

now, the next obsession. GUITARS. i dunno why, but i just wanna learn how to play a guitar. yeah, i know i'm a n00b because the only instrument i ever played well with was the recorder flute thingy in standard 6. but, still, IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TA LEARN.

therefore, I WILL CONQUER THE GUITAR WITH PASSION! MUAHAHAHA!

-mel-

extra name generators.

remember my previous post with my weird japanese name in it?
now, there is more.
explored that website a lil' bit and turned out that it has super cool stuff.
:D

My insanely stupid emo name is revive my sanity because I hate you.
(damn effing emo)

My Mafia name is Carmela Mancini.
(woot! sexeh.. macam caramel:D)

My Your "Mega Hardcore Son-of-a-Bitch Punk-Ass "Don't give a Fuck 'bout Nuthin" name is is Fuck the Government Not my Prime Minister.
(yoh, punkish like hell..)

My Egyptian Name is Lapis (named for the Lapis Stone).
(exotic.. lalalala)

My Porno Name is Chandelier Madelline.
(i got no comments.. =.=")

My future partner's name is Archie Andrews.
(shit damn lame!)

My Shakespearean moniker is Lavinia Rosencrantz.
(ey, i likey!)

My Band Name is Electric Mountain Experience.
(so like the Artic Monkeys)

My Long Name is Ferrari Antigone Carmen Marie Loquatia Laroo.
(aiseyman any parents who name their child this long must've been outta of their mind)

so, you see...
there are many crazy things you can find about yourself from this website.
surprisingly, i got this link from a commenter of an artpiece in DeviantArt.
so, viola!
:D

currently, i'm so addicted to Alicia Keys " Like You'll Never See Me Again". the lyrics are meaningful, her voice is wonderful, and the videoclip is nothing short of emotion. i almost cried when i saw the videoclip.. TT.TT

anyways, i'll battle with maths tomorrow. too lazy.... well, see you bloody *censored for a few words* exponential functions!!!!!!!

-mel-

my japanese name.

My authentic japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 三千代 Michiyo (three thousand generations).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

monkey on a crossing bridge + three thousand generations= my name?

wth.

hahahhaahhahaha.

try it, its fun. :D

-mel-

printing error.

remember my previous post with my timetable?
well, there were some changes in it.
a printing error to be exact.
an error which made TB3 students to waste two hours just to attend a class that wasn't supposed to exist.

now, here's how we found out..

grace: teacher havent come in leh, so late aledi, wanna go and ask office?
me: ok..
(in office)
me: is miss uh.... *whispers to grace* what's her full name aledi ah?
grace: is miss lim lh in? she was supposed to enter our class now..
office girl 1: what's she's teaching u? what time is your class? what venue? what class are you in? blablablabla...
me: blablablablabla..

(this goes on for a few minutes..)

office girl 1: wait yah.. *dials the number*
me:....
office girl 1:......
*telephone no reply*
office girl 1: wait..
me: ok... =.="
*telephone still no reply*
office girl 1: *asks help from office girl 2*
office girl 2: *tries to contact her* wait yah..
me: ..... *nod*.....

(after a few minutes...again)

grace: i go check whether she went in anot.
me: ok... *and continued waiting+stoning*..

(when she returned...)

grace: nope, she's not in..

(then, TL, Dh and Nic came to office one by one..)
TL: she in anot?
me: soon to be confirmed..
Dh: *entered the office* got class anot?
me: duno yet..
Nic: *entered the office* can we go back?
me: errmmm.. duno la.. they confirming for us..

(then..)

office girl 2: you all go back to class 1st, she will enter..

(so, we went back.. after a few minutes landing my ass on the chair and preparing to do maths, suddenly..)

*knock knock*
office girl 2: *came in* who's the class rep?
me: i am.
office girl 2: can i speak with you outside?
me: ok.

(soo...)
office girl 2: actually today u dun have class, sorry yah, its printing error.. maths ony on tues and thurs.
me: HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.. *in my mind, i was practically saying "WTFZOMFGLOLROTFLLMAOOMFG!*
office girl 2: sorry yah..

so.. when i told my classmates about this, everyone was shouting and complaining.
yeah, who wont la..?

-mel-

a dirty joke.

tonight i received an unexpected sms from my soul sistah a.k.a bezy fwen that really made my day or to be exact, night.

here it goes.

Notice:
The Erecterius Trouserius or the Trouser Snake is the world's most dangerous snake. Color varies from pink to black. It is fangless. Average length is 3 to 9 inches depending on subspecies. Usually appear on bedrooms but found in unusual places at times. Attacks women in the lower part of the abdominal area. Its highly venomous spit can cause prolonged swelling that lasts for 9 months. IT HAS ALSO BEEN KNOWN TO ATTACK MEN FROM BEHIND. Beware.

bwahahahahahaha.

if you are offended with these kind of jokes, then too bad.

-mel-

another WTH moment.

yep, that's my new timetable. not as packed as before, but still i sense DOOM in it.
since, it's a short semester, expect lotsa CRAMMING sessions in it.
oh well, no more procrastination.
gtg and work harder.
still...
i will never be seperated with "Bleach"!
muahahaha!

and of course the precious thing in my life.
:D
God, my friends, my family.

EDIT: credit to Mh for the timetable. sorry yah! :D

-mel-

what teh hell?

a few things happened during the past few weeks.

1. i broke up with mah bf. thanks for the memories.
2. i am enjoying my new-found freedom.
3. i am seriously addicted to Bleach now.
4. im infatuated with the Bleach guys (the hotties >3>) eventhough they are purely fictional.
5. i met up with my bezy fwend, Jeru and both of us met up with another bezy fwen, Suyin.
6. the three of us had the jolly time of our lives.
7. i had a hair cut and i dyed my hair. ^^
8. i actually planned to do my undang2 exam this sunday.
9. therefore, my mum called the driving instructor.....
10. .....only to find out that the place sudah gulung tikar aledi... WTH.
11. so, now i'm finding for another driving school.
12. sheesh.

anyways, my classes starts next monday. so hello maths, finance and psychology. goodbye holidays.
oh my, so emo. >.<
to add the emoness, i'm listening to Ave Maria.
it's a classical song and it's featured in the Hitman movie.
so haunting...

Ave Mariiiaaaa...

-mel-

my daemon.

ya know, that's mah daemon. and his name is Aerodon. what a freaking cool name! haha!

got inspired by sherry. :D

-mel-

time to let go.

i just broke a terrible news to him today.

i told him that we can't be together anymore.

i told him that i can't understand him anymore.

i told him that we tak ngam anymore.

i love him but i can't be together with him.

i'm sorry.

he's hurt. terribly.

i know.

i saw it in his eyes.

but..

this cant go on.

the same scenario will happen again.

i cant lie to myself.

i cant lie to him.

and, i cant run a relationship based on sympathy.

save your efforts, dear.

and..

find a girl that suits you best.

once again, thanks for the memories.

what's in a name.

What Melanie Chuah Siew Mooi Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

saw this in sherry's blog. kinda interesting and quite accurate. :D

-mel-

tagged.

got tagged by kwanyi. at least it finally pushed my lazy arse off my comfort zone and start updating my blog for once.

okay, here it goes.

5 things found in my bag:
- fake Guess wallet
- mp3 player
- huge pencil box
- books
- tissue paper

5 things found in my wallet:
- IC
- BonusLink card
- $1
- coins
- cash

5 favorite things in my room:
- my bed
- my pillow
- my bolster
- my perfumes
- my lip balm

5 things I always wanted to do:
- lose weight
- learn how to converse in Canton and Mandarin better
- remember little details
- sleep..a lot
- cut down my phone calls

5 things I'm currently into:
- acoustic stuff
- daydreaming
- music, more music..
- hoodies
- gaming :D

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
- a SUPER, FANTASTIC, VERRY MIND-BLOWINGLY POWERFUL gaming machine <3
- Midnight Poison.. verrry sexxy bottle :d
- a better laptop
- an iPod
- a PSP

The person who tagged you is: kwanyi

Your 5 impressions of him/her:
- sweet
- farney
- good listener
- likes Indie stuff
- reaaallly likes Cecelia Ahern (hope i got the spelling correct)..

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you:
Becoming my friend :D

If he/she becomes my lover, you will:
Really care for her and be there for her.

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
No reason, because its hard to imagine her as my enemy. :D

Pass the quiz to 5 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
- vanessa
- sherry
- sammie
- eric
- gabriel

-mel-

sloth is my mortal sin?

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz


got inspired to take this quiz by sammie's blog. when i saw the results, i was like WTF?

lust= VERY LOW?
sloth= MY MORTAL SIN?

i never expected this result. hehe.

i am a naughty gal. i think about dirty stuff. i do think about sex. but i'm still a virgin, mind you.

and my lust is considered very low. hmmm..

yes, i'm very lazy. i have to admit that.

hehe.

anyway, say hello to web page design.

-mel-

screwed up.

yeah, you screwed up. BIG TIME.

forgotten.

its amazing to know how fast people tend to forget that you are there for them. that you are not invisible.

yeah, i admit i am a bit secluded at times and don't talk much, but hey, when you talk i listen.

i might be quiet but my ears are doing their work, ya know.

im not uncaring. when you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, im always here.

when you need someone to crap together with, im always here.

i might not look as hot as you or as slim as you.
i might not be as sporting and cheerful as you.
still..
im not invisible..
im still alive..
and im here for you.

just another emo post. heh.

random crap.

1. i'm a big fan of Team Fortress 2 but i cant run that game. ><
2. i like DJ Tiesto. I like Benny Benassi. i'm a dance/trance/techno freak.
3. i like artic monkeys, good charlotte, linkin park. because they rock HARD.
4. im a gamer. yes, it's very rare to find female gamers who play FPS. no, im not embarassed with discussing gaming stuff with male gamers.
5. i like deviantART because they produce good art.
6. i have two mp3 players; Sony and Samsung. Sony, meet Samsung. Samsung, meet Sony. Sony, i gt Samsung for free. Samsung, i got Sony as my birthday present. Now, both of you don't fight each other ok?
7.i have already played half life 2 trilogies, medal of honour: airborne.. and so much more..
8. i have stinking assignments to do. sick of them. really.
9. facebook is nice to play but too complicated.><
10.some people have thick skin. really thick skin.
11. women have three layers of skin, men have seven layers of skin, how about u?
kk, gtg 4 class nw.

-mel-

it's time to let go.

i have decided. it's time to let go of him.

i can no longer stay in a relationship where all that is left is just hurt and betrayal.

i cant afford to hurt him again. even if we do patch things up together again, it will be still the same. both parties aren't satisfied with each other no matter how much we try to please each other.

maybe we are just not compatible. maybe we are not fated to be together.

i do know that we had done lots of things together and imagined having a life together. however, sometimes we just have to know when to let go for the benefit of both.

i love you but i can't let you suffer being with me.

hopefully you will find a better girl that suits you best.

I'm sorry for everything that i had done.

and thks fr the mmrs.

i will always cherish those memories.

and i will always remember that you were the guy whom i had loved the most in my life.

-mel-

advice.

this morning, i asked my dad a question.

"it's not good to blame yourself for everything right?"

his answer?

"you're having another relationship problem huh?"

smart daddy.

he told me that obviously it's not good because you are being overly critical about yourself. and this will cause your confidence level to go down, which spells DISASTER.

so, what should i do then?

his answer?

"change what you can, and if that's not satisfactory enough, just let it be. make sure your opinion about yourself never changes no matter what."

well...

currently, im still struggling to rip off my emo "hood" that has dampened my spirits since God knows when.

it will take time.

but how long?

-today the sunlight has parted the gloomy clouds in the sky. the sky looks clear yet not clear enough.
then, i realized that there is still some hope in me left.-

-mel-

random.

my smiles feel fake today.

the reason?

to hide my misery.

am i depressed?

i dunno.

im always blaming myself for everything.

im losing my confidence.

the words "sad, miserable, guilty, depressed" are my mantras these days.

maybe im feeling this due to yesterday's argument.

maybe my period is coming.

i dunno.

life has just gone bitter for me these days.

today, i realized the the sky is gloomy.
just like me.

-mel-

my heart cries.

なぜ？
i think guilt will claim my sanity before illness does.

i feel unfair to him.

私は未熟すぎますか？

characteristics of someone.

GEMINI - Irresistible(the Twins - 21 May 21 June)* Nice.* Love is one of a kind.* Great listener.* Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.* Trustworthy.* Always happy.* Loud.* Talkative.* Loves being in long relationships.* Not one to mess with.* Freak.* Outgoing.* VERY Forgiving.* Loves to make friends.* Has a beautiful smile.* Generous.* Strong.* The Irresistible one.

today, i'll be describing about someone i know very much.

he has become a part in my life and seperating him from me is like seperating my jantung from my body. imagine the amount of blood gushing out when that happens... yucks... (>_<")

now, let me describe you his characteristics with the help of the "guidelines" above..

NICE
he is VERY nice. it's like he's made of sugar, spice and everything nice. he cares for his loved ones up to the max. if someone he loves has a dizzy spell or something like that, he'll ask that person to take medicine, see doctor, go for general checkup yadda yadda yadda... still, he has a very big heart and that's one of his qualities that makes him so special.

LOVE IS ONE OF A KIND
his love is TRUE. PURE. UNTAINTED. it's very rare to find this type of love in most guys of his age. these days it's easy to find guys who loves you only for your body, money etc, but it's extremely hard to find guys who loves you for the way you are. i respect him and i cherish him for this pure love that he has for me.

GREAT LISTENER
he might look quiet at times, but believe me, he listens to you. and he's great at doing that. i find this quality a comfort to me because i'm that kind of person who can't express myself well you see. when he listens to me pouring my heart out, i really feel relieved. even painkillers can't cure my heart's misery as much as this...

LOVER, NOT A FIGHTER, BUT STILL KNOCK YOU OUT
with those killer eyes, a cheeky smile, and a VERY cheeky laugh, i was literally knocked out of my feet by him. haha, seriously. one thing he likes to do when i'm around him: play with my cheeks. ^^

TRUSTWORTHY
he knows my darkest secret and i trust him for keeping it. he had seen me broke down, he had seen how much my family suffered. he's a great secret-keeper. even his own friends told me how trustworthy he is. to this quality, i salute him.

ALWAYS HAPPY
he looks happy always, and that made him a likeable person. however, he also faces dilemmas, problems, just like us. i listened to him as he vent his feelings about the problems he faced, and i know it's not easy for him to look happy outside but feel sad inside. if he doesn't have many problems, i can assure you he'll be glowing with happiness, inside out.

LOUD
yes, i agree, he can be loud, especially when he's with his friends. like any normal person will do, he will enjoy himself, laugh and talk and laugh and talk. sometimes, he laughs very loud until i can hear him from a distance. and, by watching him enjoy himself, i feel happy too.

TALKATIVE
don't be surprised if he reveals this quality to you. he can be very very talkative when he wants to. whether through phone or face to face, he has the ability to talk and talk and talk. a good companion for a talkative person like me.

LOVES BEING IN LONG RELATIONSHIPS
the proof? we are together for a year already, and it's pretty long. furthermore, he talks about our future together, and i can see the sincerity in his eyes when he talks about that.

NOT ONE TO MESS WITH
yes, treat the title above as a precaution. once you touch his nerve, it's so long for yah. hell hath no fury like him scorned!!

FREAK? NAH... HIS OBSESSIONS TO BE PRECISE..
he has a very soft spot for children. a rare quality. and he's crazy over chubby cheeks. one of his idols is vijay.. you should had seen how excited he was when he watched his idol's movie..^^... his favourite football team is MU, fav player is rooney. his fav car is proton wira special edition, maroon in colour and belongs to his cousin brother. trisha is his fav actress. he loves his nephew very much. he likes straight, medium long hair. AND he loves to play with my cheeks.

OUTGOING
he is averagely outgoing. he does go out and lepak with his friends, and if he had the slightest chance to go out instead of stoning at home, he'll take it 1oo%.

VERY FORGIVING
may God bless him for having this quality. i had done countless of mistakes, i had hurt him so much, and yet he still forgives me and asks me to move on and learn from my mistakes. yet, when i promise him that i'll change, i always break that promise. i really thank God for having such a wonderful person by my side and im really grateful.

LOVES TO MAKE FRIENDS
yes, he likes making friends, and with his likeable character, it's easy for him to find friends everywhere. a sociable guy. well, he can adapt to a new environment better than me i think. i'm pretty introverted at times.

HAS A BEAUTIFUL SMILE
i 100% agree with that. it's hard to resist that cheeky, boyish smile of his. his smile makes him look younger than his age, and that's a good thin. like my mum said, he will always look young.

GENEROUS
he's generous with everything. care, love, time etc. a man with a big heart.

STRONG
he's strong in his love. very strong, and i know it deep in my heart. he's also strong when he faces many challenges and problems. he face it eventhough it's hard for him. and i'll be by his side always to support him all the way.

and finally, THE IRRESISTIBLE ONE
who can ever resist his charming smile and his big heart?

that's all for this post. hope u enjoy it yeah. *wink wink*

accounts, chicken chop and pancake.

cant find the connection between those three things? let me tell you a story... oh no, i'm becoming like abel (>.<)

today i was supposed to attend my english replacement class at 9am. however, since i bergayut at the phone until 1am and i had 2 get up at 6am if i'm attending the class (transport.... T.T), so i didnt have enough sleep and i barely could get up from my bed. so, this was the conversation between me n my dad at 6am when he woke me up...

dad: wad tym is ur clas 2day?

me: *****..... errrmmm.... 9... am... lo.....

dad: den u have 2 follow me out.which is like 7am....

me:....huh... den, i dun go lo.... english class ony wad....

dad: up to u, but will be your points get deducted?

me:.... no la..... zzzzzz.....

dad: ok la.

END OF CONVERSATION

wau.... wow.... my dad was so open for once.

so, i went to U at 9 sumthing, and i purposely waited till 10 sumthin before i had my real breakfast at M n M's.

while waiting, i did my accounts. and while i waited for the food, i also did accounts.

as i was "basking" in a flurry of depreciation whatsoever formula, my orders came.

pancake and chicken chop.

if you had seen the huge size of the chicken chop, you'll be amazed...

and for the first time, i regretted being so greedy.

anyways, after much effort of consuming it, the two stuffs vanished, thanks to my classmates' help... thank you, thank you, thank you!

and... of course i felt like a pregnant lady with twins.

oh dear.

so... the conclusion is...

only order one dish, NOT TWO..

unless the dishes are tiny... hehehehe....

pemotongan stim.

i called him just now to at least have a teeny weeny chat with him.

i know that my bills will burn a big hole in my dad's pocket.

still, i prefer to listen to his voice.

unfortunately, what i got was a sombre 'hello' and 'why did you called?'.

i told, 'i miss you'.

he said, 'you must understand the situation.'

then, it was my turn to grab the throne as the emo queen.

i said, 'oh ok. bye.'

-line disconnects-

now, i don't know whether to message him first or wait for him to message me.

chances are, the latter choice will never work.

so, maybe i should give him a message.

however....

he sounded moody, sombre, emo-istic....

should i tread the unstable path and risk it all OR should i just 'buat bodoh'?

haihz, dilemma.

i don't wanna argue anymore.

i'm sick of arguing.

i feel that i'm making the mistakes everytime.

and....

it's killing me softly....

why....

useless.

yesterday had a huge argument with him.

seems that my attitude of giving different answers to hide the hurtful truth had pissed him off.

"Y la yyyyyyyyyyy?"..

that was a sure sign of frustration.

you see, i'm that kind of girl who doesnt wanna hurt people and because of that i had landed into troubles like THIS.

at times i feel so useless.

today, because of lack of sleep n minor depression, i felt like a walking zombie.

haihz.

irritated

see this pic?

datz wad i feel like doing onto some STUPID guy on messenger. now, lets name that bastard Mr.X. It all happened on a sunny afternoon when suddenly X sent me a msg.

X: hi

Melanie: hello

X: u have bf?

Melanie: yah

Melanie: y?

X: how old is ur bf?

Melanie: 20

X: how old r u?

Melanie: 17

X: ur bf so old

X: u break up wif him la

Melanie: wad the f***?

X: he's too old 4 u

Melanie: so, wads wrong wif that?

X: not nice la

X: u break up wif him, i can introduce a nice guy 4 u

Melanie: i decide my life NOT u

Melanie: who u tink u r to order me around?

So, i blocked him. dumb fler, gt nuthin else to do except f***ing around.

haha.

to add fuel in2 my irritation, i havent completed my arts yet. and i havent completed my studying 4 comp studies.

haihz.

so crappy.

what you never know

what you never know wont hurt u

what you never know wont lie

what you never know wont desert u

what you never know will make you cry...

( Sarah Brightman - What You Never Know)

beautiful song. seriously.
damn bloody meaningful. so heart-wrenching.

songs. they could really change your life.

anyway, time to stop CRAPPING and start describing my day. today, as usual, i had tons of homework to complete in a very limited amount of time. and my temper was tested during arts class. we had to describe our team proposal for the next project, however none did that and our "lovely" tutor looked furious. so, my friend, grace came to the rescue. she talked about creating an art gallery to present our artworks, and it sounded fun. then, it was my turn to talk. i was nervous because i duno what to say since i didnt prepare anything at all.

then, it happened.

for the first time, i crapped like hell, and it turned out well.

hahahahahahahah!

i talked about collaberating with other classes to create a huge art gallery and combining our manpower to create a magnificent artwork.

talk about being "creative". haha.

anyway, push that aside in the meantime. i have a SHITLOAD of studying to do.



-i wish i could be free to love-
melanie

i finished my 5 mins speech!!!

yah, finally i did it. i finished my 5 mins speech. and i didnt manage 2 complete everything in time. shit. still, was worth my effort la, got satisfactory marks for it. the downside is dat i had 2 dress up and put makeup on like im goin 2 work and itz irritating.

had to join this chinese dance thingy, so now gotta find a group. ne1 wanna join, hehe...?

planning to get a blazer and pants for the 10 mins speech. my frens recommended G2000. have to go there 1 day la.

neway, im so shitting confused with my love life.

why it alwiz have to end up like this?

wad 2 do nw..?

haihz. yesterday i drank. the alcoholic value of dat drink is only 6.6%. but still i got drunk. my face was red and i was laughing my head off. and it happened in my room. thank goodness i locked my door. im a loser in drinking.

btw, moussandra is damn nice. itz a greek restaurant and heck, the atmosphere is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. hopefully it isnt too pricey. haha.

now, i seriously dunno wad to do. im leaving my arts tutorial with my friend to help me complete it. might try to shade it myself though, itz fun.

haihz, so many assignments, so little time..

a shitting tiring day

while i'm typing this blog, i'm cracking my head about my computer studies tutorial and at the same tym smsing. talk about multi-tasking indeed. btw, 2day i had seen 2 hilariously DUMB video clips in Youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56HRGSvbpsE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0RH0cYs4lw
be prepared to laugh your head off 1ce u watch these clips ayt. :P

lets see. 2day during english tutorial, miss sharmini asked us to interview our classmates, and it was bloody funny. we managed to dig out secrets that we never expected. apparently, in our class, we have two condom collectors, ahahaha. classic, very classic.

what i ate 2day? during lunch break, i went to sri paandi's restaurant to have indian food. yum. in the end, i was so bloody stuffed, i looked like a pregnant woman 4 3 months. hehe.

anyway, i'l try to update this blog as frequent as possible. gtg nw.

-melanie a.k.a melly-

sleep, where r u now?

sleepy, i'm so sleepy,
i wanna sleep d whole day on my own, ahhhh....

now, i cant sleep thanks to a 2 hour nap.

now, i regret taking a nap this long, because now i couldn't sleep.

sleep, pleeez come back to me.

they say sleep is effective for those who want to lose weight,

it's actually true, because if you dun have enough sleep, you will eat more.

dats wad's happening to me now.

these days im eating like a PIG. i really feel very guilty now. haihz.

btw, what do you feel if you fall in love with two guys at the same time? datz wad my friend asked me.

obviously you will feel like you're living in hell worse than hell itself. true?

haihz. then, what about forbidden love? she asked that. you are in love with someone whom you shoudnt be liking or loving at all.

now, that is a hard question. post your comments about this question ayt.

-melanie-

a life in UTAR..

every morning i'l hv 2 get up super early just to go 2 university. can't help it bcoz got no transport. haihz. den, i'l sit in the lecture hall or tutorial room to listen superbly boring facts and figures blah blah blah. dey give us homeworks and assignments and then class is dismissed.

this is university life huh?

currently i'm in the university computer lab, typing this blog while freezing my ass off. it has been four hours since my last class and i still have to wait for another an hour and half for my dad to fetch me.

so, what to do in the next 1 hour and 30 minutes?

sit in the pc lab, freezing to death?

go in2 the library and read some books lyk a zombie?

or just sit down at the steps leading to the 1st floor like a stone?

thank goodness, i dun hv 2 pick all those choices bcoz my frens are with me, haha!

i have no regrets in choosing the foundation in arts course in UTAR. i had loads of fun and laughter which i would never experience in my former secondary school. i finally found my newfound confidence that has been lost to me for such a long time.

thank u UTAR!

-melanie-