characteristics of someone.

GEMINI - Irresistible(the Twins - 21 May 21 June)* Nice.* Love is one of a kind.* Great listener.* Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.* Trustworthy.* Always happy.* Loud.* Talkative.* Loves being in long relationships.* Not one to mess with.* Freak.* Outgoing.* VERY Forgiving.* Loves to make friends.* Has a beautiful smile.* Generous.* Strong.* The Irresistible one.

today, i'll be describing about someone i know very much.

he has become a part in my life and seperating him from me is like seperating my jantung from my body. imagine the amount of blood gushing out when that happens... yucks... (>_<")

now, let me describe you his characteristics with the help of the "guidelines" above..

NICE
he is VERY nice. it's like he's made of sugar, spice and everything nice. he cares for his loved ones up to the max. if someone he loves has a dizzy spell or something like that, he'll ask that person to take medicine, see doctor, go for general checkup yadda yadda yadda... still, he has a very big heart and that's one of his qualities that makes him so special.

LOVE IS ONE OF A KIND
his love is TRUE. PURE. UNTAINTED. it's very rare to find this type of love in most guys of his age. these days it's easy to find guys who loves you only for your body, money etc, but it's extremely hard to find guys who loves you for the way you are. i respect him and i cherish him for this pure love that he has for me.

GREAT LISTENER
he might look quiet at times, but believe me, he listens to you. and he's great at doing that. i find this quality a comfort to me because i'm that kind of person who can't express myself well you see. when he listens to me pouring my heart out, i really feel relieved. even painkillers can't cure my heart's misery as much as this...

LOVER, NOT A FIGHTER, BUT STILL KNOCK YOU OUT
with those killer eyes, a cheeky smile, and a VERY cheeky laugh, i was literally knocked out of my feet by him. haha, seriously. one thing he likes to do when i'm around him: play with my cheeks. ^^

TRUSTWORTHY
he knows my darkest secret and i trust him for keeping it. he had seen me broke down, he had seen how much my family suffered. he's a great secret-keeper. even his own friends told me how trustworthy he is. to this quality, i salute him.

ALWAYS HAPPY
he looks happy always, and that made him a likeable person. however, he also faces dilemmas, problems, just like us. i listened to him as he vent his feelings about the problems he faced, and i know it's not easy for him to look happy outside but feel sad inside. if he doesn't have many problems, i can assure you he'll be glowing with happiness, inside out.

LOUD
yes, i agree, he can be loud, especially when he's with his friends. like any normal person will do, he will enjoy himself, laugh and talk and laugh and talk. sometimes, he laughs very loud until i can hear him from a distance. and, by watching him enjoy himself, i feel happy too.

TALKATIVE
don't be surprised if he reveals this quality to you. he can be very very talkative when he wants to. whether through phone or face to face, he has the ability to talk and talk and talk. a good companion for a talkative person like me.

LOVES BEING IN LONG RELATIONSHIPS
the proof? we are together for a year already, and it's pretty long. furthermore, he talks about our future together, and i can see the sincerity in his eyes when he talks about that.

NOT ONE TO MESS WITH
yes, treat the title above as a precaution. once you touch his nerve, it's so long for yah. hell hath no fury like him scorned!!

FREAK? NAH... HIS OBSESSIONS TO BE PRECISE..
he has a very soft spot for children. a rare quality. and he's crazy over chubby cheeks. one of his idols is vijay.. you should had seen how excited he was when he watched his idol's movie..^^... his favourite football team is MU, fav player is rooney. his fav car is proton wira special edition, maroon in colour and belongs to his cousin brother. trisha is his fav actress. he loves his nephew very much. he likes straight, medium long hair. AND he loves to play with my cheeks.

OUTGOING
he is averagely outgoing. he does go out and lepak with his friends, and if he had the slightest chance to go out instead of stoning at home, he'll take it 1oo%.

VERY FORGIVING
may God bless him for having this quality. i had done countless of mistakes, i had hurt him so much, and yet he still forgives me and asks me to move on and learn from my mistakes. yet, when i promise him that i'll change, i always break that promise. i really thank God for having such a wonderful person by my side and im really grateful.

LOVES TO MAKE FRIENDS
yes, he likes making friends, and with his likeable character, it's easy for him to find friends everywhere. a sociable guy. well, he can adapt to a new environment better than me i think. i'm pretty introverted at times.

HAS A BEAUTIFUL SMILE
i 100% agree with that. it's hard to resist that cheeky, boyish smile of his. his smile makes him look younger than his age, and that's a good thin. like my mum said, he will always look young.

GENEROUS
he's generous with everything. care, love, time etc. a man with a big heart.

STRONG
he's strong in his love. very strong, and i know it deep in my heart. he's also strong when he faces many challenges and problems. he face it eventhough it's hard for him. and i'll be by his side always to support him all the way.

and finally, THE IRRESISTIBLE ONE
who can ever resist his charming smile and his big heart?

that's all for this post. hope u enjoy it yeah. *wink wink*

accounts, chicken chop and pancake.

cant find the connection between those three things? let me tell you a story... oh no, i'm becoming like abel (>.<)

today i was supposed to attend my english replacement class at 9am. however, since i bergayut at the phone until 1am and i had 2 get up at 6am if i'm attending the class (transport.... T.T), so i didnt have enough sleep and i barely could get up from my bed. so, this was the conversation between me n my dad at 6am when he woke me up...

dad: wad tym is ur clas 2day?

me: *****..... errrmmm.... 9... am... lo.....

dad: den u have 2 follow me out.which is like 7am....

me:....huh... den, i dun go lo.... english class ony wad....

dad: up to u, but will be your points get deducted?

me:.... no la..... zzzzzz.....

dad: ok la.

END OF CONVERSATION

wau.... wow.... my dad was so open for once.

so, i went to U at 9 sumthing, and i purposely waited till 10 sumthin before i had my real breakfast at M n M's.

while waiting, i did my accounts. and while i waited for the food, i also did accounts.

as i was "basking" in a flurry of depreciation whatsoever formula, my orders came.

pancake and chicken chop.

if you had seen the huge size of the chicken chop, you'll be amazed...

and for the first time, i regretted being so greedy.

anyways, after much effort of consuming it, the two stuffs vanished, thanks to my classmates' help... thank you, thank you, thank you!

and... of course i felt like a pregnant lady with twins.

oh dear.

so... the conclusion is...

only order one dish, NOT TWO..

unless the dishes are tiny... hehehehe....

pemotongan stim.

i called him just now to at least have a teeny weeny chat with him.

i know that my bills will burn a big hole in my dad's pocket.

still, i prefer to listen to his voice.

unfortunately, what i got was a sombre 'hello' and 'why did you called?'.

i told, 'i miss you'.

he said, 'you must understand the situation.'

then, it was my turn to grab the throne as the emo queen.

i said, 'oh ok. bye.'

-line disconnects-

now, i don't know whether to message him first or wait for him to message me.

chances are, the latter choice will never work.

so, maybe i should give him a message.

however....

he sounded moody, sombre, emo-istic....

should i tread the unstable path and risk it all OR should i just 'buat bodoh'?

haihz, dilemma.

i don't wanna argue anymore.

i'm sick of arguing.

i feel that i'm making the mistakes everytime.

and....

it's killing me softly....

why....

useless.

yesterday had a huge argument with him.

seems that my attitude of giving different answers to hide the hurtful truth had pissed him off.

"Y la yyyyyyyyyyy?"..

that was a sure sign of frustration.

you see, i'm that kind of girl who doesnt wanna hurt people and because of that i had landed into troubles like THIS.

at times i feel so useless.

today, because of lack of sleep n minor depression, i felt like a walking zombie.

haihz.