Bonne nuit, 2008.

What I've learned/experienced in 2008?
The taste of freedom.
The joy of friendship.
The pressure from assignments and exams.
The sorrow of losing someone beloved.
The carefree moments of "yamcha" sessions in the middle of classes. (I hope my mum doesn't see this.)
The crazy feeling of drinking too much and still can remember everything the next day. (I heard when you are drunk with wine, you can't remember whatever you did during that period the next day.)
The ecstasy of online gaming until it was too overbearing.
The fleeting moment of having an infatuation towards a certain guy. (Two guys, to be exact.)
The heartbreaking feeling of letting that infatuation go.
The nerve-wrecking moments of driving lessons and exam.
The mushy feeling of reading a romantic story. (Too much, perhaps.)
The confusion in handling PTPTN matters.
The euphoria of having my best earphones in my life. (Bass baby~! Yeah!)
The jitters before delivering a presentation.
And...
AND...




Oh dear.

I can't remember.

Ah well.

Happy new year everyone.



May your life be filled with the various colors of experiences, just like this candy stack. :D

Porcelain.

I can see her.. but I can't touch her.

Do you know why?

Her beauty is captivating.
An angel in disguise.

Yet.
Just a touch of unbridled love and lust.
And that beauty will be contaminated by the tendrils of sin.
By me.
With the filthy hands of my own.


I desired to embrace her.
To protect her.
To be by her side.
Ever since that time... that time.

Yet.
Her beauty is so fragile.
So delicate.
A sinful touch and a shatter.
Like a porcelain vase.
With the warning sign next to her.
"Nice to see, nice to hold; Once broken, considered sold."


No.
I will not break her.
I will not sell her love and beauty to the Devil.
That is why I will refrain myself with the shackles of my conscience.
And admire the ethereal beauty from afar.
Just like a child admires a refined porcelain.

Something that I wrote before the exams. Nothing much really, just wrote this down at the spur of the moment. Inspired by the many books and online stories I had read. :D

-mel-

cough cough cough. and random stuff.

every morning since this thursday, i have been coughing my lungs out till my stomach hurts. darn, this sucks. plus, i have assignments to do. i can't even talk properly without "coughing up a hurricane" (termed by Jordan).

talking about assignments, i did my slides but i'm not sure whether to modify it or just leave it there. excluding the introductory and ending slides, i have 11 of them. enough for 6 minutes? or just plain too much?

oh well. in the meantime, i'll stick with my drooling for TF2. gosh, eventhough i can't play that game, i'm still madly in love with its retroish graphics. my next aim once i get a generous sum of moolah will be getting the original Orange Box. Nuff said.

updates on my personal life? nothing new except a fleeting crush. like a tsunami, it came in waves. and like a tsunami, the waves gradually decreased in magnitude until it fades to a mere memory. i ALMOST confessed, yet something held me back and i'm glad that i finally got hold of that impulsive twitch in me.

bleah. anyways, i did try out the original version of the screaming orgasm drink recently, and it tasted WEIRD. coffee and liquor. with a cherry in it. luckily the cherry saved my senses LOL.

before i sign off, i seriously hope my current state of health dysfunction will improve soon. =S

ugly pic tag.

Just came back from dinner. Gosh, I'm so pale. ._."
Anyway, lazy to tag. Tagged by Shuyi <3


1. Take a picture of yourself right now.

2. Don't change your clothes or fix your hair.

3. Post that picture with NO editing.

4. Post these instruction with your picture.

5. Tag 5 people to do this.

speechless. so, i smiled.

yeah. i'm eighteen now. i'm considered legal. or am i?
that was what i asked my dad. i asked him, "i duno whether i should be elated to the max or just remain sober and indifferent for today?".
i mean, i'm eighteen today. i should be enjoying myself instead of thinking serious stuff right?
at the same time, i also have to move on right?
this conversation happened after the lunch outing with my family and bezy friend at the curve.
it was very warm, very happy, very homely.
simple and sweet, i could say.
so i half-heartedly thought that my outing in 1utama will be the same indeed.
how wrong i was.
how VERY wrong i was.

what appeared to be a simple dinner turned out to be one heck of a fabulous gathering filled with cheers, hugs, laughter.
when i saw familiar faces smiling back at me, i was speechless. utterly speechless. the only thing i could do that time was to give my widest grin and say "thank you". in my heart, i was weeping with joy and i was drowned with emotions.

when i observed all my friends smiling and laughing and enjoying each other's company, i felt...blessed and happy. i remembered one of the orphans from the orphanage telling me to count my blessings. how true it was.

after all the fun and in the comfort of my home, i opened the HUGE birthday card and the presents.

i felt tears stinging at the back of my eyes.

i felt my heart melted into a mushy puddle beneath me.

if i was not that expressionless, i would have cried like a baby.

i'm that kind of girl who really appreciates the little pleasures in life.
and when these kind of "pleasures" come in surprises, i am rendered speechless.
so, i smiled.

groggy.

waking up at 6 a.m. for a 10 a.m class is crappish.
yet i have no other choice, thanks to KL infamous jam.
travelling back and forth from college with 25-30 mins taken each trip isn't really nice.
bleah, just forget about it.
anyways, just got JT's latest album, Mr. Timberlake.
mr. sexeh is back.
mostly his songs are remixed versions, so adds a new kick for his signature pieces like SexyBack etc.
still, i love him. <3

two sides of the story

why do people become defensive when a misjudged opinion is made about you?
is it because of the truth of the opinion is not a truth at all?
or the denial of the truth that is made about you?

why do people seem to sound to you as if they know everything?
is it because of their attitude?
or is it a fact that they see things in you that you didn't see at all?

why do we judge people?
is it because of the social influence around us?
or our need to judge to compare them with ourselves?

why do people have arrogance?
is it because of their need to prove something?
or it's just a form of self-defense?

why do people stick in relationships eventhough they are being eaten inside out?
is it out of love?
or out of responsibility?

we have many problems but one solution.
yet, we have one problem but many solutions.

humans are a myraid of personalities and solutions. yet, at the darkest hour where emotions were stripped raw, we are all similar inside.

power sleep~!

may god bless the kind soul who smsed me at 12 am tonight. or i won't be able to wake up from my slumber. slept around 7pm, and planned to wake up in 2 hrs time. in the end, overshot by 3 hrs. nice. really a signal for me to take a loooooooong break and sleep till no end.

anyways, saw this tag from shuyi's blog. seems interesting and since i need a break from reading sarky notes, no harm trying it. =D and yeah, added some descriptions also.

RULES:

Pick your birth month.
Bold and colour out anything that doesn't apply to you.
Tag 10 people. (lazy to tag.)

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. yes i agree.

Difficult to fathom. erh, true also.

Thinks forward. nah, i dunno

Unique and brilliant. yes.

Extraordinary ideas. yes.

Sharp thinking. not really.

Fine and strong clairvoyance. not sure.

Can become good doctors. i.dont.know.

Dynamic in personality. perfecto.

Secretive. uhumm.

Inquisitive. spot on.

Knows how to dig secrets. boom, headshot.

Always thinking. boom, another headshot.

Less talkative but amiable. .....so so...

Brave and generous. 60/40 true.

Patient. patient enough to withstand A LOT of things.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. it's in my genes.

If there is a will, there is a way. yeah.

Determined. Never give up. yeahh.

Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. yeahhhh.

Loves to be alone. erh, no. depending lah.

Thinks differently from others. YEAH.

Sharp-minded. no, not really. i'm a blur case.

Motivates oneself. eh?

Does not appreciate praises. ehh..?

High-spirited. ehhhhh?

Well-built and tough. ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?

Deep love and emotions. ahhhhhh, true.

Romantic. ahhhhh, very true.

Uncertain in relationships. true no?

Homely. i love my bed.

Hardworking. HAD to be.

High abilities.

Trustworthy. =D

Honest and keeps secrets. =D

Not able to control emotions. =DDDD

Unpredictable. >=DD

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves makingfriend s but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literacture and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

forgive me for my lack of vocab. i am just too sleepy.
pictures will be up tomoro i guess.

till then, nites..

armors and handgrenades.

no, they aren't the latest gizmos of whatever game i'm playing. they're part of a technique to remember these cranial nerves. haihz.

i'm desperate for sleep. i'm desperate for outings. i'm desperate for HUGS.

i need a hug right now.

PDA PDA go away.

PDA= personal development assessment

8 pages of pure original ideas and sentences. all about myself. and i completed it in another college from 12 something till now. holy shiz.

1 down, 4 more to go.

in the meantime, hello biopsych.

ghost in a shell.

i am the white beneath the black and the black beneath the white.
floating in a deluge of memories, covered by a fragile shell.


=mel=

gtfo.

pester, pester. nag, nag.
i wanna get textbooks also u nag.
i wanna use the pc also u pester.
i wanna get the textbooks also u dun believe.
i wanna use the pc also u dun give me time.
i try to explain, ur sarcasm disgusts me.
i try to advice, ur arrogance and rudeness angers me.
when u can keep nagging about ur past, u expect me to think your way.
when u land into trouble because of ur gaming, i also was dragged into your shit.
blame me for influencing you, blame me for spending too much money.
fine.
fine.
fine.
i dun have to eat during school.
i dun advice u instead.
u land into trouble, dun find me.
any emotional problems, dun find me.
when i need support, where u go.
i tell u sumthing, u blame it on my gaming.
fine.fine.fine.

i give up.

=mel=

selamat hari raya. or should i say, happy raya?

selamat hari raya.
happy raya.

what's the difference?
1) the correct way to say it.
2) the way i ALWAYS unintentionally say it.

why lah i always use happy raya? so angmoh-ish right?? maybe because i got used to happy birthdays, happy this and that. so, somehow it got mixed up. hurrah for verbal confusion.

now is the time to celebrate, so sayonara assignments for now: :)


=mel=

wake up lazy bum.

yes yes yes........... i'm waking up and i'm dragging my lazy arse ONCE again to revive this blog.

so. what about me nowadays? 1stly, i'm a HELP psychology student. yep, that's right. no more lifeless hours of gaming and camping for raid bosses in GE now. and boy do i miss those 3 long months of idleness. T_T

life as a HELP student isn't that bad after all. it's fun and all. laughter here and there, lame jokes exchanged, and of course the occasional gossip sessions. on the downside, there is only one word to describe this. ASSIGNMENTS!

barely a month into the college AND i felt as if i have gone through UTAR's foundation semester work in one go. plus, it's week 4. and mid terms are coming. oh shiz. assignments. oh noes. biopsych, need to read etc etc yaddayaddayadda. oh crap.

plus, the lazy bug is not helping either. i feel like a slow slug, sliming its way up the wall in a very slow slow slowwwwwwwwwwwwww pace. gosh.

we did "join" some clubs, and i mean, "j-o-i-n" for the sake of joining. in the end, we didn't make to the meetings. why? most of the time, the timeslots for those meetings were booked for assignment meetings. yeah, 4 weeks as newbies in college degree life and already have meetings for assignments. hurrah.

anyways, crappy emo aside. for once, my social life is finally revived! hurray~! gone are the days where most of the time my company is the lappie or the pc. seriously, i'm glad i started college life already, or soon enough i will degrade myself to hermit status. ._.

haihz, unfortunately the single's dillemma is back. this time it bites hard. trying to get rid of it though by concentrating on other stuff.

till then, sayonara and pray i wun be a lazy blog slug again ._.

-mel-

part 2.

weeeee~ part 2 of the sleepover chronicles is here~ =D

so, we k.oed at 4am, and i got up around 11am, with a major surprise.

i didn't get a hangover.

-___-

and my best friend did.

-________________-


it is undeniable that my alcohol tolerance is waaaayyyy lower than her. i mean, last time, even a small bottle of Kampai (which consists of alcohol, carbonated water and fruit juice? 0.0), i can go gagaga doop-dee-doop and end up with a major headache. bleah.

anyways, that day we were supposed to go to subang with her parents to print their books there. so, both of us stopped by my place for me to take a shower and change. then, i called my mum up, asking her permission to let me drive her car for practice.

well, she gave the green light.

now here comes the adventure of the day.

we drove pretty far and all. it is peanuts to drive auto, but make sure the brake works well.

welllllllllllllllllll..........

i was coming down a low slope with a lorry in front of me. he had slowed down and signalled to the left. i was braking, but i realized it didn't slowed down enough.

my best friend panicked, of course.

so this is what i did..

my instructor would have killed me by now. =.=

luckily we arrived home safe and sound.
but not safe from the worried looks of both of our mothers.

so i told my mum about the incident and asked her to repair the brakes.

then she told me.

"Maybe because last time you forgot to put down the handbrake before driving the car, that's why not really working properly. i'll go and service it."

thank you for reminding me about THAT incident.

=mel=

3 bottles of heineken.

what happens when me and my best friend share 3 big bottles of heineken?
1. burp!!!!
2. lalalalalala..
3. lelelelelele..
4. my speeeling is correct!!
5. you should wear good armor, oops, i mean.. bra..
6. burpppp!!
7. no, i'm not tipsy!! (my grinning silly face shows otherwise...)
8. eh, three bottles finish ah?? how come we still not drunk?!
9. come lets go petronas get more bottles!!!!
10. moi, u dun lean backwards k? ...

and..

poof!

i landed on the bed.. and slept till no end -.-

part 2 will be uploaded soon, now i wanna sleep... had fever -.-

=mel=

certified geekiness.

ah man. after such a long time of not blogging.
i do miss this BLOG.

ah well. thanks to GE, my life is preoccupied with it. heck, i feel i'm turning into mega geek now. neways, i met wonderful people in that game, so somehow, there are no regrets. =D

my classes in HELP will start on the 27th of august, and boy am i glad to go back to study life after 3 months of stoning at home. but then again, after a few months in university, i will wish for the 3 months holiday again. so... ironic.

driving wise, it's starting to get rusty also. dun ask why.

i really miss the mamak sessions i had with my fellow UTARians. and SP Corner's nasi lemak. and the canteen auntie with the nose voice. @@

generally, i miss everything. @@

ah well, tomorrow i'll update again and i'll try to dig up events from my ancient brain... maybe start digging out my old notes also....

-mel-

tired.

i
am
tired
now.

i'll
give
a
huge
update
tomorrow.

till then, sayonara.

it has been a long run.

yes, it has been a long run.

my aunt passed away on 3rd May, 10.00 pm. till this day, i still miss her cheerful laughs and her loud voice.

my friends; kwanyi, angie, sam and sherry went to kampar to start their degree life. i really miss you all. =( hopefully you have a great time there aye?

to kwanyi: remain the sweet, helpful, cheerful and independent girl that you are always been okay? and remember to post your fabulous quote posts, my fellow banana! XD

to angie: angie! don't grow so tall anymore yah or not i have to crane my neck 90 degrees just to see you!! ahhahahahaa! XD

to sam: sam sam, hopefully you remain the boisterous and happening girl there aye? let bygones be bygones and enjoy your new found freedom. =D

to sherry: ah, my fellow bleach fangirl a.k.a orange lover! eh remember to keep on watching bleach okay? hahha! hope you enjoy your psychology lessons there aye? remember to keep in touch!XD

by the way, i PASSED MY FREAKING DRIVING EXAM!

YAHHOOOOOOO!

XD

Anyways, before i end this post, here's a tag. (tagged by Sherry)

8 things i'm passionate about:
1. music
2. friends
3. family
4. freedom
5. Bleach
6. Granado Espada
7. sleep
8. food

8 things i say or do too often:
1. hello
2. hi
3. haha
4. hehe
5. wtf?
6. play with my hair.
7. smile widely.
8. daydream.

8 thing's i've read recently:
1. a thousand splendid suns
2. hp7
3. women's weekly june edition
4. crusader gold
5. the historian
6. angels and demons
7. the war of the worlds
8. phantom of the opera

8 songs i could listen over and over again:
1. Teach me how to love- Musiqsoulchild
2. American boy- Estelle ft. Kanye West
3. Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
4. Love in This Club- Usher
5. Carpe Noctum- DJ Tiesto
6. Ten Seconds Before Sunrise- DJ Tiesto
7. After Dark- Asian Kungfu Generation
8. Hate That I Love You- Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo

8 things i learned last year:
1. being a banana isn't so bad after all.
2. i have chosen the wrong guy.
3. be more independent.
4. be more confident.
5. life is full of choices.
6. it's easy to make friends, you just have to take the initiative.
7. don't judge a book by its cover.
8. smile.

8 people to tag:
1.A
2.N
3.Y
4.B
5.O
6.D
7.Y
8.!

-mel-

Sayonara.

Sayonara. We will always love you.

time.

Doctors predicted she has one week left. Maybe less, maybe more.

One week is too short to say your regrets.

To voice out your love.

To show your appreciation.

And to say goodbye.

The words are true.

Time waits for no man.


-mel-

i'm feeling dumb.

second day of driving and i already felt stoopid. this time we take it to the roads and OMG, it's so nerve-wrecking. plus with the pressure and all, i sensed tears looming dangerously at the edges of my eyes.

eh, what the hell la.. i'm a newbie ok? when my engine died at the middle of a busy junction, i was like WTH. not once, but TWICE, THRICE. the instructor said i let go of the clutch too fast. which THAT i didnt realize AT ALL.

then i learned the three point turn. THAT, i can safely say for now, WAS OKAY. i think.

next class he'll go slow on me and fully concentrate on the three point turn and parking.

now i feel so... helpless. useless. hey, i tried to be optimistic. sadly i didn't try harder, so voila! EmoTsunami has just landed onto the shores of my mind.

i just hope, reallllly hope things will get better.

-mel-

driving.

Today is officially my first time driving a car.
Today is my first driving lesson.

So, what can I say about it?

It was fun in a way. However most of the time, I was sweating profusely.

Do you know why?

Not because of the weather.

I WAS PANICKY INSTEAD.

SO BLARDY PANICKY.

DON'T KNOW WHY.

Somemore the road so narrow. So scary.

Anyways, my best friend accompanied me, so it wasn't so bad after all. Since I'm a beginner, there are a few nooks and crannies that I have to improvise, especially my acceleration, braking, shifting gear etc. All those basic stuff.

But, yeah, I was so panicky after a loooooooooooooooooooongg time.

The instructor is nice, very patient. I learned a lot. So no complains about him.

Just hope all goes well yeah.

By the way, KIKI, lu mana hilang? >.<

-mel-

a weird dream.

Weeee! Exams are overrrrrr. Finally!!!
Anyway, I had a really freaky but steamy dream last night. I dreamed of making out with a guy that I know of. And holy God was it steamy. Full of censored stuff and all. Yucky but strangely..fun.
Yeowch. And the guy in my dream was someone whom I know well. NO, not my ex. Someone else...

By the way, don't play Tomb Raider: Anniversary Edition if you don't wish to smash the PC into shreds. Seriously. Save your frustration in something else. It has nice graphics and all, but the puzzles are repetitive and tough. Some parts are so impossible until I just practically gave up and deleted the whole game.

Compared to this, I rather go Viwawa-ing.

-mel-

celebrate the day!

OLE~~~~~
OLE~~~~
CELEBRATE THE DAY~~
THE DAY~~
THE DAAAAYYYYYY~~~~~!!!!

MERDEKA!
MERDEKA!
MERDEKA!

ME SO HAPPY TODAY!

MORE TIME TO VIWAWA ALL THE WAYYY!

XD

-mel-

officially psycholess.

yeah! bye bye psychology! hopefully i wont see you again till august!

hahahhahahaha.

now, the time for finger-straining action has ended.

INSTEAD, the time for head-cracking headaches to take over.

MATHS.

do not betray me.

haihz.

-mel-

exam mode.

yes. i'm in exam mode now. i'll be the supernerd till this thursday. this wednesday, i'll be going to MV to study with CS, Steve and Dione again like today. that means hours of head-cracking formulas and discussion in McD's while controlling ourselves from flying to the cinema booth for tickets.-______________________________-""
with the movie posters in all their glory, it is tough.
oh well. PSYCHOLOGY! MATHS! HERE I COMEEEE!

-mel-

stoopid marching bands..

BOM! CHIANG! RATTATATARAT! BOM! *trumpet sounds*CHIANGGGG!
*plays the "Keranamu Malaysia" song*

stoopid marching bands.
my beauty sleep all gone.
next time have to get up b4 10 am.
haihz....

-mel=

procrastination, examination, irritation, probability distribution and social cognition.

procrastination= i have been hooked with online games. so, precious hours of studying are wasted into mindless shooting.

examination= exam is in next week. that means 5 days more. shiet.

irritation= i can't study. my attention span is similiar to a goldfish now.

probability distribution= my last maths topic, which is two more topics from what i'm studying now.

social cognition= miss chan's pronunciation of this phrase is damn weird. "SOSHIAL COGNEESHION". a failed attempt to "slang" it. =.=

i am so lazy.....

TT.TT

-mel-

tell you something.

Tell you something
by Alicia Keys.

Get so caught up everyday
Tryna keep it all together
While the time just slips away
See I know nothing lasts forever

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn’t I see your face
There’d be no limit to my sorrow
So all I can say

I wanna tell you something
Give you something
Show you in so many ways
Cause it would all mean nothing
If I don’t say something
Before it all blows away
Don’t wanna wait to bring you flowers
Waste another hour
Let alone another day
I’m gonna tell you something
Show you something
Won’t wait til it’s too late

I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
I won’t wait til it’s too late

Just a simple conversation
Just a moment is all it takes
I wanna be here just to listen (I wanna be here)
And I don’t wanna hesitate

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn’t see your face
There’d be no limit to my sorrow
Cause there is nothing that could fill that space
Ohhh, did I put it off for too long?
I didn’t say all that I had to say
I wanna take the time to write the wrong
Before we get to that place

I wanna tell you something
Give you something
Show you in so many ways
Cause it would all mean nothing
If I don’t say something
Before it all blows away
Don’t wanna wait to bring you flowers
Waste another hour
Let alone another day
I’m gonna tell you something
Show you something
Won’t wait til it’s too late

Just lean on my shoulder
It’s not over til it’s over
Don’t worry bout it
Cause I’m gonna
make sure our bond gets stronger, yeah
I don’t wanna wait until the storm
When something’s wrong and now you’re gone
and I can’t find you

I wanna tell you something
Give you something
Show you in so many ways
That it would all mean nothing
If I don’t say something
Before it all blow away
Don’t wanna wait to bring you flowers
Waste another hour
Let alone another day
I’m gonna tell you something
Show you something
Won’t wait til it’s too late

I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
I Won’t wait til it’s too late
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
I Won’t wait til it’s too late
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
I Won’t wait til it’s too late
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I won’t wait, I don’t wanna wait
No No No No No…


thanks for all the memories
sorry for all the mistakes
i wish your life will be free of worries
and i'll be there for you no matter what it takes. =-)

-mel-

P.S: dedicated to my friends and family, especially my aunt who is diagnosed with cancer. May God bless her.

2nd post!

ohmigawd i know it's my second post in one day but just have to share this! so damn effing cool!

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Genealogy searches - Blank family tree

moolah!

FINALLY. CONNECTION IS BACK! STOOOPID STREAMYX.

ok, tag time!

THE TAG
1) The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
anybody except my ex.

2) When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
yes, of course!

3) In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
i listen, listen, listen. till can grow fungus. ahahaha, jkjkjk!

4) Do you take compliments well?
i say "thank you" and somehow forget about it.. i have short term memory syndrome like Dory from "Finding Nemo".. =.=

5) Do you Sudoku?
i don't like numbers.

6) If abandoned alone in the wilderness, will you survive?
MAYBE. if i don't die of panic. =.=

7) What song are you listening to?
Benny Benassi "Every Single Day".

8) Did you ever go to camp as kid?
ONLY ONCE. and i DONT REALLY like it.

9) What was your favorite game as a kid?
dance like mad, masak2 and play policewoman.

10) If a person you really liked was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
i ask him to go and rot in hell. blardy unfaithful.

11) Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
had dated someone like that before and it's kinda okay with me. however, compromise is needed greatly.

12) Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
it depends. i experienced both before, but prefer being pursued instead. however, if the person pursuing me is the one that i think he cannot make it, then i sure damn dulan. if i pursue a person, it takes a lot of effort and a lot of risks.

13) Use three words to describe yourself.
you describe me.

14) Do any songs make you cry?
yes. especially Martina McBride's "Concrete Angel".

15) Are you continuing your education?
yes i am. and nothing's gonna stop me. =)

16) Do you know how to shoot a gun?
real gun? nah. First Person Shooter games? OH YES BABY. i am a shotgun and sniper freak. muahahahaha.

17) If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'd grab?
my handphone! to call 911!

18) How often do you read books?
very often. nowadays didn't read much cuz im broke to buy books. =(

19) Do you think more about the past, present or future?
present and future. i hate meddling with the past.

20) What is your favorite children's book?
Enid Blyton's series!!!

21) What color are your eyes?
dark brown?

22) How tall are you?
170-171cm. not sure. kinda hard to find bf taller than me though. =.=

23) Where is your dream house located?
errrr.... not sure.

24) Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
nah. havent tried that yet.

25) When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
olive oil i know lah.

26) Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
UTAR, PJ. =.=

27) Do you like mustard?
me okay with it.

28) Do you prefer sleep or eat?
both also i like!

29) Do you look like your mum or dad?
i'm a clone of my dad. including the personality.

30) How long does it take you in the shower?
20-30 mins. if in a middle of a rush, 5 mins.

31) Can you do the splits?
NOOOO.

32) What movie do you want to see right now?
L change the world.

33) What did you do for New Year's?
go online and wished happy new year!

34) Do you own a camera phone?
yes. i do.

35) Was your mom a cheerleader?
she so tiny, scared later her bones will break. jkjkjk.

36) What's the last letter of your middle name?
W.

37) How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
5-6 hours.

38) Do you like care bears?
baby show. yuck. teletubbies better. hahaa.

39) What do you buy at the movies?
only movie tickets.

40) Do you know how to play poker?
no. i'm a good gal.. ahahahahaa..

41) Do you wear your seatbelt?
yes. i hate emergency braking.

42) What do you wear to sleep?
shorts+t-shirt or nightdress.

43) Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
26th december tsunami. /.\

44) How many meals do you eat a day?
3.

45) Do you always read Friendster bulletins?
no. very rarely.

46) Do you like funny or serious people better?
both. depending on the situation.

47) Ever been to L.A.?
wish i could.

48) Did you eat a cookie today?
no.

49) What are you thinking right now?
my head itchy. =.=

50) Tag 6 people in your list.

i)suzanne
ii) jerusha
iii) anyone
iv) else
v) who
vi) wanna volunteer?

SO. THE FIRST TAG DONE. NOW THE SECOND ONE.
i simply created this one.
got inspired by an article in the newspaper.
if you wanna do it, go ahead.
mind you, it's kinda serious.
=)

WHAT ARE THE QUESTIONS THAT WILL CROSS YOUR MIND IF YOU ONLY HAVE AN HOUR TO LIVE?>
1) have i done enough for those who care for me?
2) do i have any regrets for what i've done?
3) is there anything else that i wish to do or say to show my appreciation to someone?
4) have i apologized for my mistakes?
5) have i achieved what i wanted to achieve?
6) how does it feel like to die?
7) is it painful? or peaceful?
8) can my loved ones recuperate from my death?
9) would i be a wandering spirit?
10) would i go to Heaven or Hell?
11) can i become an angel in my afterlife to look over my loved ones?
12) how does Heaven look like?
13) do you really need to knock on Heaven's door once you are there?
14) can my spirit wander into space, out of Earth? i wanna see the stars.
15) should i tell my loved ones to donate my organs to those who need them once my time is up?
16) have i done enough to make this world a better place?
17) did i do God's bidding?
18) have i given enough love to my loved ones?
19) do i feel angry for being given such a short time to do everything..?

ahh well. damn serious rite.
i tag anyone who reads this blog. up to you if you wanna do it.

-mel-

tagggggg....! you're it!

from kwanyi's blog.. love yah!

rules:
1. name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head.
2. don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 people.
3. randomly list the names. no cheating!

the 5 people:

1. houzhi
2. kwanyi
3. aaron
4. jerusha
5. dione

questions:

1. how did you meet 1?
in Uni. had a hard time differentiating him and his twin. >.<

2. on a scale of 1 -10 how would you rate your friendship with 1 ?
er. 6?

3. how long have you known 4 ?
since form 1.

4. how do you know number 3 ?
online.

5. wheres 5 ?
home, probably.

6. a fact about number 1 ?
he's cute and has a twin. (a sentence with two facts. can lah.)

7. who is 4 going out with?
me lah! ahahaaha...

8. what does 1 do for a living?
er, studying.

9. would you live with number 3 ?
........no comments.... -________-

10. what do you like about number 2 ?

she's scuh a nice gal to talk to. <3

11. do you miss number 5 ?
kinda. i miss her baby talk...

12. would you make out with number 4 ?
oohlala.. that will make us lesbos.

13. what’s your opinion of number 2 ?
i love this sistah!<3

14. what's your favorite memory with number 5 ?
the times where we do girl talk in lecture class. ahahaa.

15. what would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
0.o.. if he's not taken, it might happen. eheheehe..

16. ever had a long conversation with 5 ?
yes. loads of times.

17. have you ever slept at 2's house?
not yet. but i want. hehe.

18. do you hang out with 3 a lot?
online only.

19. who have you known the longest?
jerusha! she's my kindred spirit! ehee..

21. how often do you talk to 1 ?
occasionally..

22. what about 2 ?
often.

23. have you ever thought 3 more then a friend?
to be honest, nope.

24. would you go out for a date with 5 ?
if she is willing to go lesbo with me. hhehe..

25. do you dream about 2 ?
eh, not yet.

26. what did no 4 did to you that you can never forget?
for being my bestest buddy. <3

27. what have you done for 1 that the person never forget?
go pangkor trip with him.

28. what's 3 hobby?
mixing music.

29. tag 5 people:

1. whoever
2. who
3. reads
4. this

5. BLOG.

tags.

tagged by VicKi Low. anyway, this tag looks fun. so, bleh about maths first and do this. X3

-You-

Firstname: Melanie
Nickname: Mooi, Miaow, Mel
Name you wish you had: i'm happy with my name. <3
What do People normally Mistake your Name as: malanie, melannie, melany, minachi.. =.=
Birthday: 2nd Nov
Birthplace: damansara, PJ.
Time of Birth: i forgot.
Single or Taken: single and available.
Zodiac Sign: scorpio.


-Your Appearance-

How Tall are You: erm. slightly taller than average.
Wish You were Taller: no. if i'm taller, it's gonna be tougher finding a taller bf. >.<
Eye Color: dark brown.
Eye Color You want: erm. none actually. haha.
Natural Hair Color: dark brown.
Current Hair Color: copper brown. dyed me hair.. ^^
Short or Long Hair: short.
Ever Dye your Hair a Bizarre Color: tak pernah. and i don't plan to. hehe.
Last Time you did Something Dramatic with your Hair: dyed my hair? hahaha.
Glasses or Contacts: both.
Do you wear Make-up: yes but rarely.
Ever had Hair Extensions: nah...
Paint your Nails: occasionally. with all the bizarre colors.


-In the Opposite Gender-

What Color Eyes: me dont care.
What Color Hair: me also dont care.
Shy or Outgoing: anything.
Looks or Personality: personality. but at least have a bit of looks la. haha.
Sexy or Cute: either one will do.
Serious or Fun: both of them. make sure it's balanced.
Older or Younger than You: definitely older.
A Turn On: height. and deep yet cheeky eyes.
A Turn Off: tendency to overcontrol. and arrogance.
Flowers or Chocolates: chocs! i can never resist chocs.
Pepsi or Coke: both.
Rap or Rock: rock is my cup of tea!
Relationship or One Night Stand: relationship. duh.
School or Work: does undergrad life count?
Love or Money: ahh. sweet sweet love will always be better than the crisp smell of moneh.^^
Movies or Music: 80% music, 20% movies.
Country or City: city.
Sunny or Rainy Days: depending on my mood.
Friends or Family: both are very important.

-Have you Ever-

Lied: yes.
Stole Something: ONCE.
Smoked: no.
Hurt Someone Close to You: yes. haihz.
Broke Someone's heart: think so.
Had your Heart Broken: many times.
Wondered What was Wrong with You: of course.
Wish you were a Prince/Princess: nah.
Liked Someone who was Taken: yes. once. or twice. guess its my luck.
Shaved your head: ehh no. i cant. i will NEVER.
Been in Love: yes. yes. yes.
Used Chopsticks: yep.
Sang in the Mirror to Yourself: eh. im tonedeaf.


-Favorites-

Flower: roses. white roses.
Candy: lollies..
Song: i'm a music junkie so i have an almost infinite list of favs.
Scent: perfumes.
Color: turquoise, white, black.
Movie: don't ask. i have too many.
Singer: refer to the movie section.
Word: wtf. wth. huh? shit.
Junk Food: erm, twisties? hehe.
Website: a lot.
Location: my bedroom. haha.
Animal: cats! hamsters! anything cute!

Ever cried over someone: yes.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: erm. my blurness?
Do you think you're attractive: at least i'm not anorexic. haha.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: nah. fairytales only exist in dreams.
Do you play any sports: ....no.. except stoning.=.=


The rules: -

1) Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2) List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1. I'm a girl
2. I like to sleep.
3. I taught maths since last week.
4. I am very sleepy.
5. My fingers are aching.
6. My stomach muscles are strained.
7. Why tomorrow got exam?
8. My handphone rosak.=.=

I tag

1. Jerusha
2. Angeline
3. Dione
4. Samantha
5. Kwanyi
6. Any guy
7. Any girl
8. Anybody who reads this blog.

-mel-

dear vicKi.

{credits to Sam for the pic}

dear vicKi Low a.k.a miss monkey:

sorry for this overdue bday post. was supposed to do this yesterday but was kinda ill. >.<



the characteristics of miss mon*ahem* VicKi Low..
1) has a smile literally plastered on her face 24/7.
2) has a very addictive laugh.
3) her face can turn into tomato red in less than 5 seconds.
4) her blog is so happy-go-lucky, it's impossible not to smile after reading her posts.
5) she has A HUGE appetite. VERY HUGE. and she still can remain skinny. what a marvelous metabolism.6) cupcakes, we all like cupcakes eh, kiki?
7) she makes people warm and mushy inside, no matter how emo/angry they are.
8) there are so many things about her that's made out of sugar, spice and everything nice. even words can't describe how much I love this big sistah. <3

anyway, thanks for bringing a rainbow to our lives, kiki!

HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY!
xD

-mel-

hyperness overrated.

today i'm hyper. and normally it can mean two things.
1) i'm stressed.
2) i'm getting a fever SOON.

well, the symptoms arised in the beginning of today's maths replacement class. believe me, i tried to concentrate in class. i tried. in the end, it failed, likE USUAL. i'm starting to think i got attention deficit disorder or whatever similar naming disorder. (CHOI!)

so, to channel my hyperness into something else, i rummaged into my classmates' pencil box. i explored every nook and cranny of the small space to my heart's content. and yes, i discovered new stuffs.
1) a charcoal chalk (is that what it's called?) costs RM5.50 in Popular. WTH. that's the same price as a normal chap fan in SP Corner.
2) guys do have PINK mechanical pencils.
3) some guys have neater pencil boxes than girls. serious.

then, i turned into the next activity; took a magnet outta my clip and experimented with every surface available to see whether it sticks. now, here's the list of succesful experiments.
1) CS's specs rim.
2) the tiny metal thing near my hp's camera.
3) my hp's screen.
4) shuli's motorola hp.
5) the shiny part at my mechanical pencil.

soon, i was bored. so, i took a piece of tissue, and wrote down all the curse words and normal exclamation terms. then, i translated them into BM. For example..
1) holy shit! (heard MH saying out loud, so gt the inspiration)
----> tahi suci!

2) what the hell!
----> apa neraka itu?

3) piss me off (shuli's idea)
----> kencing saya "off"? (cant figure it out)

4) what the f***?
----> apa pukima itu?(http://pgoh13.free.fr/dico_answer.php)

5)mother f***ing asshole
----> dubur pempukima ibu (omg that sounded so wrong)

etc..

so most of the time i giggled excessively till my face felt hot. oh my.
am i getting loco?
/.\
btw, i tortured mh's cheeks today. haha. the torturing will not stop here. haha.

-mel-

bahasa jiwa bangsa.

pada hari ini, saya, vicKi dan dione telah mencipta satu ilham yang sangat bagus.
kami akan berblog dalam bahasa malaysia pada hari ini SAHAJA.
tidak tahu kenapa secara tiba2 kami sangat bersemangat patriotik.
oleh itu, sekarang adalah giliran saya untuk berblog pasal hari saya yang sangat bosan.

hari ini saya banyak berbatu (stoning) dalam kelas kerana tak cukup tidur. semasa pensyarah matematik tengah menulis formula2 yang saya sendiri tak faham, minda saya sudah terbang ke tanah mimpi. jadi, saya tidak dapat menyerap apa2 dalam kelas itu.

pada waktu petang pula, rumah takda elektrik. hancur mampus kantoi tidur saya. jadi, apa mau buat? saya pujuk mak saya pergi jalan2 dekat taman. lepas itu balik dan telepon TNB. mereka cakap bekalan elektrik hanya kembali dalam masa 3 jam.

apa nak buat?

saya terpaksa belajar psikologi dengan menggunakan lampu suluh sambil digigit nyamuk2 jahanam. saya berasa sangat marah sehingga saya mencucuk nyamuk yang mati dengan pensel tekan saya. >.< sekarang bekalan elektrik sudah pun kembali. dan saya boleh berblog.

ingatlah. bahasa jiwa bangsa.

malaysia boleh.

ketawa luar suara besar sambil bergulling kat atas lantai sehingga buntut terjatuh keluar. (lolrofllmao)




-mel-

geekiness and synesthesia...

28% Geek

ehhhh.
am i the geekiest in the gang? >.< 47%

its pink, and it has a nice name for a quiz.
oh well.

-mel-

Restricted Access.

oi. until like that ah? /.\
that means "kids" can't read my blog. /.\
anyways, credits to Sam for this quirky application.

here are the other apps i tried, and its kinda cute..
273 WATTS Body Battery Calculator - Find Out How Much Electricity Your Body is Producing -

Your Body is Producing 273 Watts!

This is 9% MORE wattage than the average person

• You could light up 3 light bulbs
• You could power 68 iPods
• You could power 1 Xbox 360
• 4 of you would be needed to keep a refrigerator running

chuahsiewmooi.blogspot.com

WANTED FOR THE MUSHY BLOGGING of an UNRULY HORSE

$2600

What's Your Blog Wanted For?

-mel-

relax, another last minute/random post.

yes, i need to relax. i have been realizing that my shoulders tend to tense up subconsciously and my forehead frequently scrunches up into a frown.

why is that happening?

maybe because of maths? or the fact that my mid term psychology test is around the corner and i didnt study one shit? or maybe because of assignments? OR MAYBE i just need to unwind a hundred knots in my body?

dang, i seriously need to take a chill pill. FAST,

you see, that's one of my weaknesses. i easily tense up. which is not a good thing actually. in fact, it can disrupt my health. so.. to counter it, what should i do?

taking yoga classes will do me good, but i'm not like that indian taukeh who can watch english/chinese/tamil/malay shows in that Astro Max advertisement and always say "I GOT TIME!". hell no, i'm not that free, ok?

then, maybe having some aromatherapy scents in my room might help. i have the Ambi Pur thingy in my room, but i have to buy the refill. so, that will be in my shopping list for now.

i should also test this deep breathing exercise. just take a few deep breaths and release your tension. seriously, i think i'll need this for my guitar classes cuz you have to relax in order to play a classical guitar properly. mind you, classical guitars are quite different than acoustic ones. in classical, you pluck. in acoustic, you strum. classical guitars have a more disciplined posture, which takes time to get used to it.

hahaha. yeah. relax.

and i have to stop being emo. start having a life for once, ya know. everyone has problems, so if they can overcome it, why can't i? true rite, guys?

yeah.

as for dieting, its tough. i don't think i can get used to it, so best i just stick with the smaller portions and 30 mins of treadmill daily. at least its better than nothing. :D i can't just crash diet like that cuz without carbs, i get very temperamental, giddy, emo and all the negative feelings that you can think of. (thats too overexagerrating eh?)

so, NO CRASH DIETING FOR ME.

the results will come out slowly but with consistent effort, I CAN DO IT.

JUST DO IT. NIKE.
hahahahahha.

i forgot the Adidads motto though, hahahhahahah!

well.. my dad had went for an emergency meeting in the headquarters at 10pm. i was like WTH, so late also got meeting??!! dunno what's the issue though. since the political tsunami had landed Msia, who know what might happen to this country from now on. economy-wise, msia is gonna have a tough time. that's what my dad said. if the goverment and the opposition don't cooperate for the better, msia is going down into a big shithole. our status will drop into a third-world country, which is something i don't want AT ALL.

hahaa.

anyway, this is one of the most random posts of mine. dunno why i had a flurry of words coming outta my mind and into this post. >.<

-mel-

tattoos and my blog's worth.

My blog is worth $1,693.62.
How much is your blog worth?

got this from vicKi's blog. my blog pun ada harga punya ka? hahahahahah.

anyways, the tattoo that i'm gonna get would be either the chinese character/kanji of "love" or "dream".

Dream. why "dream"? because i'm a daydreamer. i escape the real world by daydreaming. comes in handy during boring lectures/tutorials.
as humans, we are allowed to dream. big dreams, small dreams.because of these dreams, they make us HUMAN.
just imagine a life without dreams.
imagine a life where daydreaming doesn't exist.
hard to imagine, right?

Love. now, there are two versions here and i don't know how to differentiate them, so help me please! XD
why "love"?
love is the driving force of our lives.
without love, the world will be a very very cruel place.
well, this tattoo means a lot to me.
it reminds me to love God.
to love my family.
to love my friends.
and most of all, to love myself.
i took the knife once, and it was a terrible experience. very terrible. thank God i didn't push the knife deeper into my wrists.
or God knows what will happen to me that time.
come to think about it, it was such a silly thing to do, you know, take the knife out of guilt.
but see the bright side. now, i see the world at a different light.
i feel grateful to be alive.
yeah. after breaking up with my ex, i felt..free.
that relationship was one hell of a roller coaster ride.
still, i learned a lot. experienced a lot. made me into the person i am now.
:)

okay! stop emoing now!

lets come back to the topic!

hehehehe.

now, i have to save money first. currently i'm cracking my head on how to cut down expenses. maybe less shopping. and less expenditures of food. (SP mixed rice damn mahal sial babi!)
cannot go to m&m's cafe often la. (chicken chop=rm12)
must also control my nailpolish fetish(^^) or not all hopes of saving money will fly out of the window.

well, have to ignite the accountant side of me. i think.
well, maybe not.
>.<

-mel-

Bananas.

first try: too curly!!
second try: ok lah..

Credits to Kwanyi for coming up with the idea of iBanana. and thanks again for your credits in ur blog! *smileymonster*
so, these are the n00b-slash-amateur punya iPod ads. used paint, so sorry for the crappy pic.
banana picture taken from DeviantArt.

if u wanna use them, remember to credit me. *HUGEGRIN*

-mel-