groggy.

waking up at 6 a.m. for a 10 a.m class is crappish.
yet i have no other choice, thanks to KL infamous jam.
travelling back and forth from college with 25-30 mins taken each trip isn't really nice.
bleah, just forget about it.
anyways, just got JT's latest album, Mr. Timberlake.
mr. sexeh is back.
mostly his songs are remixed versions, so adds a new kick for his signature pieces like SexyBack etc.
still, i love him. <3

two sides of the story

why do people become defensive when a misjudged opinion is made about you?
is it because of the truth of the opinion is not a truth at all?
or the denial of the truth that is made about you?

why do people seem to sound to you as if they know everything?
is it because of their attitude?
or is it a fact that they see things in you that you didn't see at all?

why do we judge people?
is it because of the social influence around us?
or our need to judge to compare them with ourselves?

why do people have arrogance?
is it because of their need to prove something?
or it's just a form of self-defense?

why do people stick in relationships eventhough they are being eaten inside out?
is it out of love?
or out of responsibility?

we have many problems but one solution.
yet, we have one problem but many solutions.

humans are a myraid of personalities and solutions. yet, at the darkest hour where emotions were stripped raw, we are all similar inside.

power sleep~!

may god bless the kind soul who smsed me at 12 am tonight. or i won't be able to wake up from my slumber. slept around 7pm, and planned to wake up in 2 hrs time. in the end, overshot by 3 hrs. nice. really a signal for me to take a loooooooong break and sleep till no end.

anyways, saw this tag from shuyi's blog. seems interesting and since i need a break from reading sarky notes, no harm trying it. =D and yeah, added some descriptions also.

RULES:

Pick your birth month.
Bold and colour out anything that doesn't apply to you.
Tag 10 people. (lazy to tag.)

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. yes i agree.

Difficult to fathom. erh, true also.

Thinks forward. nah, i dunno

Unique and brilliant. yes.

Extraordinary ideas. yes.

Sharp thinking. not really.

Fine and strong clairvoyance. not sure.

Can become good doctors. i.dont.know.

Dynamic in personality. perfecto.

Secretive. uhumm.

Inquisitive. spot on.

Knows how to dig secrets. boom, headshot.

Always thinking. boom, another headshot.

Less talkative but amiable. .....so so...

Brave and generous. 60/40 true.

Patient. patient enough to withstand A LOT of things.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. it's in my genes.

If there is a will, there is a way. yeah.

Determined. Never give up. yeahh.

Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. yeahhhh.

Loves to be alone. erh, no. depending lah.

Thinks differently from others. YEAH.

Sharp-minded. no, not really. i'm a blur case.

Motivates oneself. eh?

Does not appreciate praises. ehh..?

High-spirited. ehhhhh?

Well-built and tough. ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?

Deep love and emotions. ahhhhhh, true.

Romantic. ahhhhh, very true.

Uncertain in relationships. true no?

Homely. i love my bed.

Hardworking. HAD to be.

High abilities.

Trustworthy. =D

Honest and keeps secrets. =D

Not able to control emotions. =DDDD

Unpredictable. >=DD

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves makingfriend s but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literacture and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

forgive me for my lack of vocab. i am just too sleepy.
pictures will be up tomoro i guess.

till then, nites..

armors and handgrenades.

no, they aren't the latest gizmos of whatever game i'm playing. they're part of a technique to remember these cranial nerves. haihz.

i'm desperate for sleep. i'm desperate for outings. i'm desperate for HUGS.

i need a hug right now.

PDA PDA go away.

PDA= personal development assessment

8 pages of pure original ideas and sentences. all about myself. and i completed it in another college from 12 something till now. holy shiz.

1 down, 4 more to go.

in the meantime, hello biopsych.

ghost in a shell.

i am the white beneath the black and the black beneath the white.
floating in a deluge of memories, covered by a fragile shell.


=mel=

gtfo.

pester, pester. nag, nag.
i wanna get textbooks also u nag.
i wanna use the pc also u pester.
i wanna get the textbooks also u dun believe.
i wanna use the pc also u dun give me time.
i try to explain, ur sarcasm disgusts me.
i try to advice, ur arrogance and rudeness angers me.
when u can keep nagging about ur past, u expect me to think your way.
when u land into trouble because of ur gaming, i also was dragged into your shit.
blame me for influencing you, blame me for spending too much money.
fine.
fine.
fine.
i dun have to eat during school.
i dun advice u instead.
u land into trouble, dun find me.
any emotional problems, dun find me.
when i need support, where u go.
i tell u sumthing, u blame it on my gaming.
fine.fine.fine.

i give up.

=mel=