cough cough cough. and random stuff.

every morning since this thursday, i have been coughing my lungs out till my stomach hurts. darn, this sucks. plus, i have assignments to do. i can't even talk properly without "coughing up a hurricane" (termed by Jordan).

talking about assignments, i did my slides but i'm not sure whether to modify it or just leave it there. excluding the introductory and ending slides, i have 11 of them. enough for 6 minutes? or just plain too much?

oh well. in the meantime, i'll stick with my drooling for TF2. gosh, eventhough i can't play that game, i'm still madly in love with its retroish graphics. my next aim once i get a generous sum of moolah will be getting the original Orange Box. Nuff said.

updates on my personal life? nothing new except a fleeting crush. like a tsunami, it came in waves. and like a tsunami, the waves gradually decreased in magnitude until it fades to a mere memory. i ALMOST confessed, yet something held me back and i'm glad that i finally got hold of that impulsive twitch in me.

bleah. anyways, i did try out the original version of the screaming orgasm drink recently, and it tasted WEIRD. coffee and liquor. with a cherry in it. luckily the cherry saved my senses LOL.

before i sign off, i seriously hope my current state of health dysfunction will improve soon. =S

ugly pic tag.

Just came back from dinner. Gosh, I'm so pale. ._."
Anyway, lazy to tag. Tagged by Shuyi <3


1. Take a picture of yourself right now.

2. Don't change your clothes or fix your hair.

3. Post that picture with NO editing.

4. Post these instruction with your picture.

5. Tag 5 people to do this.

speechless. so, i smiled.

yeah. i'm eighteen now. i'm considered legal. or am i?
that was what i asked my dad. i asked him, "i duno whether i should be elated to the max or just remain sober and indifferent for today?".
i mean, i'm eighteen today. i should be enjoying myself instead of thinking serious stuff right?
at the same time, i also have to move on right?
this conversation happened after the lunch outing with my family and bezy friend at the curve.
it was very warm, very happy, very homely.
simple and sweet, i could say.
so i half-heartedly thought that my outing in 1utama will be the same indeed.
how wrong i was.
how VERY wrong i was.

what appeared to be a simple dinner turned out to be one heck of a fabulous gathering filled with cheers, hugs, laughter.
when i saw familiar faces smiling back at me, i was speechless. utterly speechless. the only thing i could do that time was to give my widest grin and say "thank you". in my heart, i was weeping with joy and i was drowned with emotions.

when i observed all my friends smiling and laughing and enjoying each other's company, i felt...blessed and happy. i remembered one of the orphans from the orphanage telling me to count my blessings. how true it was.

after all the fun and in the comfort of my home, i opened the HUGE birthday card and the presents.

i felt tears stinging at the back of my eyes.

i felt my heart melted into a mushy puddle beneath me.

if i was not that expressionless, i would have cried like a baby.

i'm that kind of girl who really appreciates the little pleasures in life.
and when these kind of "pleasures" come in surprises, i am rendered speechless.
so, i smiled.