Picture says it all.

Uh, trying to do the Crayon Shin Chan pose. Which I didn't fail.

Spock's "I come in peace" sign PHAIL.

....
I'm a good girl, with too much time.

Submerged.

Credits to deviantart.

For once, I don't really know what to write. Or maybe I'm just focusing on shit instead of remembering to shine (Credits to siyan).

Shit? I have plenty academically. After a strenuous two-week oil-burning session, shit practically hits the fan in the form of my marketing paper. Oh, how I hate it so so so much.

Then, the assignments in my pending list. Being entrenched in the business semester for too long kinda made my psych side go into an extended leave, which I'm forcing it to return back to my memory ASAP.

Other than that, I guess life's just a slow stream trickling down the windy path surrounded by sunshine and the occasional clouds. It's slow, yet when it reaches that sharp turn, it suddenly speeds up again, only to slow down back to its.. well, slow state. However, there's this nagging voice in me telling me to start taking action into certain areas, e.g my moderately excessive cussing. No, it has nothing to do with influence or whatsoever, just that I kinda subconsciously cuss.. Maybe it's just me covering up stuff, but hey, cussing excessively is never good, especially for girls.

Then, there's that metaphorical clam shell surrounding my heart. Not that I want it to be like that, it's just I'm.. like that. Kinda tedious feeling ya know. Not a nice thing at all. For once, I just wanna dissolve that clam shell and voila! Free-spirited me unleashed! If that happens, it's gonna be very, very liberating.

I kinda feel something's missing somewhere. I just need to find that missing piece to complete the puzzle.

A bubble of my thoughts.

whatchu looking at? meow.

credits to deviantart.

RAGE. ARGH.

There goes my head again. It's not very nice to spew out "creative sentences" a.k.a bullshit when you feel that your brain is actually swimming in a pool of goo. Everytime, everytime, it has to hit me when I'm in that major phase of my semester, when all the assignments start haunting me whenever I switch on my laptop.

Ah well.

Then again, I have to kickstart my thoughts and get more inspiration for.. another project of mine, which has been long overdue. Maybe, just maybe, I might come up with something short.

In the meantime, I am wondering whether to dye my hair again or just keep it as it is. You know, revamp my appearance for once to snap myself out of this monotony. No idea, will decide tomorrow.

Till then, more facebook sessions and anything that doesn't relate to studying.

Of clubbing, lost earrings and a stolen handphone.

This post will be pictureless to mourn the passing of my handphone in a filthy pickpocketer's hands.

I sooo despise KTM now.

Anyway, I had my first experience in clubbing this Thursday and it was a blast. Despite its very-last-minute-planning-with-unexpected-delays moments, that experience was worth every single penny. I finally had my dancing fix after ages of not dancing. I admit, my dancing was really rusty till the extent that I forgot my signature "gerudi" move (nicknamed by my bezzy, Jeru). However, all concerns were out of the window with the fab music that shook me to my very bones.

On the other hand, I got to see the darker side of clubbing which kinda freaks me out till this day. When alcohol-induced guys come and try to hit on you, it's not so nice. Yes, I've heard about this being normal and all but it feels very unreal.

Then..my earrings. I took them off because they were quite a burden during my dance sessions especially when I'm sweating buckets. I sweat easily and added with the crowded dancefloor plus the thumping beats.. you get what I mean. Never expected that it would be the last time I saw them again. (And I thought I put both of them in my pocket!)

My handphone..... was stolen. Some bloody bastard just came into the train, and quickly went off before the doors were closed. Plus, I was standing near the entrance. So...yeah. I wish that *tooot* will burn in hell.

I need to get a new number and phone soon. Till that happens, my mood's gonna be kinda sallow. Added with a few affairs at heart, it's gonna be tough.

Five snippets on a Saturday.

Floating in a river of idleness.

Credits to DeviantArt.

11.07 a.m.

On a normal Saturday morning, this young lady will still be dozing in her queen sized bed, surrounded by her trustworthy comforter and curled up into a ball. However, this morning wasn't that normal because she was up way before her eight hours deadline. With the addition of a mild insomnia which had nothing to do with her coffee intake, she slept at 2-3 a.m. in the morning.

So. I guess that I've been thinking too much. Can't help it when you have two powerhouse midterms around the corner. Plus, my memory skills are rusting and in dire need of sharpening. Gone were the days where I used to memorize every equation/cell structure/dynamics from my thick textbooks.

Well, they were gone since my first days in HELP.

I was supposed to start compiling my management group report last night, only to find myself procrastinating and twittering instead. I have a serious case of procrastinatitis here. Dang

Time to restart my engines in this Saturday morning then.

4.03 p.m.

Finally managed to compile ze report. Now onwards to presentation slides. However we seem to be taking 5 minute breaks frequently. Social loafing that is approved by everyone.

5.47 p.m.

Oreos with milk are heavenly. Decided not to go to the Curve, have to go to granny's place for dinner instead. In the meantime, MU vs Msia is playing in Astro Supersport and despite the hilarious size different, I dare say that the Msia team MIGHT impress me after all. Then again, I'll only know at the end of the match, which my bro will inform me anyway. Time to sleep.

11.06 p.m.

Couldn't find the motivation to hit the one hour mark on the treadmill so did 30 mins instead. Now basking in my air cond room with the fan at full blast. Seems that my net decides to go emo on me now. Oh dear.

Anyways as predicted, MU won against Msia 3-2. Nothing much of a miracle really, it's just that the standards are different. However, there might be a glimmer of hope for the national team after this match. Well, I hope I don't have to eat my words later. Shower time then off to being a nerd..again.

1.41 a.m.

It's so tempting to ditch the book and continue chatting without giving a damn. However my guilty conscience will kill me, so a few more questions and I'm off. Seriously. Maybe I might follow my dad to the Curve but instead of gym sessions, I'll settle with a nice cup of Starbucks and start nerding away.

Guess I have to continue on now.

Lazy.

picture says it all.

credits to deviantart

Gosh am I so lazy right now.

Guitars, management, and an ant in a sea of cupcake icing.

>Tempting, no?<

>Credits to DeviantArt<

A literal lightbulb just flashed inside my mind.

Why don't I pick up guitar again to occupy my stoning-while-growing-mushrooms-in-my-head sessions when I'm not in class?

Seriously, I don't mind albeit it's darn rusty now. At least I have something else to do other than staring at Facebook the whole time.

In a way, I did regret quitting my guitar lessons a year ago but it's too late for regrets now, so might as well start from ground zero.

Problem is that I need new strings, an electronic tuner and short nails. Aih, goodbye long nails days. I'm so gonna miss you.

One day, I might own an electric guitar or bass. That will be one of the best dreams come true.

So. Management quiz is coming up soon and so are midterms. This means, more nerd time. Oh god. Optimism is really very hard to come by when you are staring at hard facts which reminds you of LLS and PMG (don't get me started). Plus, I doubt I will have the time to write down notes with color pens. Correction, THE WILL to write down notes with color pens.

Assignments are in but I'm still enjoying my days like an ant in a sea of cupcake icing. Wee.

The to-do list.

Credits to DeviantArt.

>I feel like shit today. Insomnia loves me.<

1. Learn how to drive to college, 1u, MV etc.

2. Start studying for management and marketing.

3. Start printing the internal outline and READ it for once.

4. Try to regain my appetite so that I won't faint because of not eating properly.

5. Try to sleep properly, sleepless nights will kill me soon.

6. DANCE! I EFFING MISS HAVING A BLAST ON DANCE FLOORS.

7. Need more hugs and give more hugs.

8. Bunk over in a friend's place for one day.

9. Drink. Yes, drink.

10. Cut down on my coffee intake.

11. Satisfy my cupcake cravings. That's the only food that I didn't lose interest in.

I feel like a thousand rope knots squeezed into a very tiny plastic bag. Haih.

A.N.O.V.A

A
Nauseating,
Obnoxious &
Vicious
Analysis.
Which I have finally conquered.. I hope.


Time to go after its brother.

The
-
Superbly
Tedious
And
Tiring
Statistics.

A shortie.

Yes. You. I'm looking at you with my blur, cuddly face. I'm an irresistable puffball, no?
[Credits to DeviantArt]

Uh, don't mind the name of this post. I just can't think of anything that suits the description of a short post.

So, exams are in a week's time and it hit me yesterday that I have exactly 7 days (6 now) to finish up 106 and two other subjects. My brain cells will be oozing out of my ears by the time this is done.

Anyhow, I can tick off the experience of being inked out of my life's to-do list. On towards other stuff which I don't really remember what are they but yeah, they exist somewhere.

So, anything new?

Not much exactly, same old same old, except a bit fleshier I think. A good addition into my comfort hugs arsenal. Hey, it's much nicer to say it that way rather than the conventional self-depreciating technique of saying that you gained an extra layer of fat. Positive thinking is way better than its counterpart.

As for other sectors of my life, it would be an understatement to say that my life is pretty bland because I have such wonderful people in my life. From the lame joke crackers to the self-declared pig, I can't really find a day which I didn't even smile once. To be honest, I can't figure out when did I start to appreciate the smaller things in life and I don't bother. Haha.

My bezzie told me that I'm addicted to my freedom, which might explain why I may have a gazillion crushes but there are none which I really put my heart and soul into getting that person. Maybe maybe. Well, definitely. I think I have an addiction towards freedom and as people say, addictions are hard to be ridden.

Sooo. Minus the randomness and all, the bottom line is that I have screwed my braincells thanks to t-stats and ANOVA, so this post is meant to keep my head levelled before I go into berserk mode.

Oh, I just realized. This isn't a shortie anymore.


-mel-

For the past few....

I see the mirror in your eyes,
I see the truth behind your lies.
(In and Out of Love by Armin van Buuren)

For the past few weeks, this song with its videoclip has been playing in my head. Maybe because I never thought a progressive-trance song can ever produce such an enchanting piece of artwork. With two dancers dancing their beautiful emotions away and a beautiful voice accompanying the time-stopping beats, it was just a masterpiece. Clearly that explains why that song had so many hits in Youtube itself.

For the past few weeks, my life has been driven by the flow of assignments and health issues. After the successful Back to Basics project, it was time to slog out full force on the dreaded report of the event. Nothing short of hell, as I would say. Conflicts arised, stress levels increased, pimples popped up like frenzy and the deadline seemed foreboding as always. Combined that with a movieclip, no wonder the coffee companies loved their increase of sales in the midst of the global recession phenomenon. As much as I wanted to let go a TREMENDOUS sigh, I can't do that full-heartedly with coughing and all. Three months of coughing isn't easy, you know.

For the past few days, I slept like a pig after so long. Antibiotics sucks but they do help to regulate sleeping patterns, so to speak. However, due to the excessive resting hours, my muscles just refused to wake up from their hibernation and prefered to move like jello instead. So, there and then, I found a downside. The hibernation cycle is a chore to break.

For the past few days, I have been catching up with my reading chores, as in reading academic books. Seems a bore but a sure way to kill time if Internet fails to charm me anymore (as if). One of the most interesting things I have read was about prenatal development. Eventhough the text was blurry and the pictures incomprehensible (photocopied stuff), I suddenly felt a sense of having a child of my own. That sense just appeared after I had dreamed about my pregnant cousin sister who is due this April. Maybe I'm just excited to be an auntie to another nephew or niece after all.

For the past few hours, I had a weird.. dream. A steamy one, that is. Nope, details are strictly P & C.

For the past few hours, I had received a call from a former schoolmate of mine. He was very delusioned enough to confess his feelings for me and sincerely hoped that the next time we meet, we will be together for good. Uh huh. Mm hmm. No comments. Maybe.. one. It will never happen for eternity and beyond.

For the past few hours, I bumped into another former schoolmate of mine in the dental clinic. He still has his charming smile. Wondered how long since I really saw him.

For the past few hours, my dentist said that my molars are moving too slow to fill up the gap and it will take a minimum of 1 year for it to be perfect (bones too strong, LOL). So, she advised me to put bridges instead and my braces can go away. Downside is, it's bridges, not my real teeth and they always say that ori stuffs are much better than fakerios. Mum suggested to refer to other specialists before doing that, so yeah. My eyes glazed diamonds when the prospect of having brace-less smiles is just a mere months away.....

For the past few minutes, I have cracked my head for PSY106; sms-ed three people; talked to countless others, online or face-to-face; found my lost charger; freezed my backside off; played Mafia Wars...




and thought that today wasn't such a bad day after all. :)


-mel-

One.

If I can describe myself in any perfume brand, I would choose CK One.

The Unisex perfume, where you smell masculinity yet feminity at the same time.

When I had its first whiff a few years back, I fell in love with it. It totally describes me, inside out.

To me, it's a scent of independence, self-sufficiency, freedom to do anything you like with a hell of an attitude.

It's a scent for people like me who just found her true self hidden underneath the fossilized layers of societal stigmas/responsibilities/roles that she as a human had to partake.

It's a scent for those who believes in her principles and never backs down upon them.

It's a scent resembling the willpower to face any challenges ahead with smiles eventhough tears and frustration tag along.

Best of all? 

It makes me feel like a woman with a heart of stone.

100 things about this lady.

Got inspired by Tyaa's note in Facebook and Aly's 100 random things post also. Let's give this a shot.

1. i love turquoise and teal. get me anything with these two colors and i'll be grinning like a cheshire cat.

2. i love cats but i don't know how to take care of them.

3. i'm a music junkie. anything from tiesto to joe bagale.

4. my hair color now is autumn red. i think.

5. my bones are too strong till my dentist got kinda frustrated with my braces progress.

6. lip balm is my life.

7. i love perfume. my obssession. :D

8. i used to play guitar from beginner till the start of grade one. then i stopped.

9. one day, i wanna be a bassist.

10. i aim to take photography lessons.

11. i have a very nasty temper if provoked.

12. my mouth moves like a bullet train when i get angry. 

13. i'm a semi-banana. weee.

14. i was nicknamed the failure of love in high school.

15. i was 10 kg fatter 3 years ago.

16. i smile like my dad.

17. i love hugs. they're therapeutic.

18. i do have self-esteem issues especially towards my weight.

19. i'm trying to deal with these self-esteem issues.

20. i bottle up my feelings.

21. i can be very impulsive, especially in terms of love.

22. i dated an indian guy before.

23. i had many many crushes. shortest 1 lasted a week.

24. i have a vivid imagination.

25. yes, i do have dirty thoughts when i daydream in lectures.

26. can't remember the last time i cried.

27. i swear. moderately alot.

28. i love books. 

29. i love anime, but quality ones.

30. i RARELY, HARDLY did any PDA.

31. i can't drink alot.

32. when i'm high, i'm the best hug provider.

33. i'm a gamer girl.

34. in games, i look for graphics, sounds, and the occasional gore/violence. maple story is a no-no.

35. i used to play Granado Espada. spent alot in that too.

36. i love sniffing on guy's perfume. proof= stealing whiffs of my dad's Guess perfume.

37. pasta, i love you.

38. i went to a slimming centre before. never wanna go back there again.

39. no, i don't care for my lips just to make them kissable.

40. it's because i hate chapped lips.

41. i have this habit of twirling the tips of my hair now and then.

42. i'm not exactly pure chinese.

43. sometimes, i imagine myself making out with fictional guys. it's good to imagine.

44. i love mirror's edge.

45. i like taking pictures in angles.

46. i am vain. i check on my reflections in mirrors everytime i get the chance.

47. my house is near a secondary school. their marching band practices wake me up.

48. i am bad at directions. very very bad. the reason: i daydream in the car.

49. i hate it when the hormonal rushes kick in.

50. i love cupcakes but i don't get the chance to savour them often.

51. no curry/spices, no life.

52. i always steal peanuts from my friend's nasi lemak plate. they dislike them so i sapu them.

53. i speak malay like a malay.

54. sometimes i do have the indian slang when i speak in english.

55. i used to have long hair.

56. i like smiling.

57. starbucks is my indulgence. so are secret recipe cakes.

58. i try not to be emo because it's a very heavy burden and it gives me headaches.

59. i love entering The Body Shop because i get to sniff at the fabulous scents.

60. so far, i only dated once.

61. i used to avoid spaghetti straps, halters and sleeveless.

62. i pierced my ears four times just to get my 1st piercing.

63. i let my nose piercing heal because it's half closed and my studs keep on getting lost.

64. i curl in bed when i sleep.

65. i miss dancing in parties and letting loose.

66. i have a halter saree and a punjabi suit in my closet.

67. i have a baju kebaya and baju kurung also.

68. a very flowery cheongsam top is resting peacefully in the darkest corners of my closet.

69. i'm flat-footed.

70. i don't know how to swim or cycle.

71. according to feng shui or whatever that is, i'm a Metal Horse.

72. i'm a Scorpio.

73. when i go for mamak sessions, i don't care how i dress.

74. flip flops rule.

75. rice makes me sleepy. too little makes me grumpy.

76. i'm gonna be the second shortest in my family.

77. i have a cartoonist uncle who shares the same taste of anime with me.

78. i have a very health-conscious uncle who keeps penang cleaner than KL.

79. i have an aunt who can play scrabble like nobody's business.

80. in my dad's side, three of my relatives are teachers.

81. my dad is a police officer.

82. i just realized that most of my relatives are goverment servants.

83. in my mum's side, i have a director uncle, a makeup artist aunt, a simstress aunt, an insurance agent uncle, and a logging contractor uncle.

84. in my mum's side, three of my relatives are simstresses.

85. my whole family relations consist of malay, chinese, and indian members.

86. i love penang. it makes me feel homely.

87. i have been out of the dating scene for quite some time.

88. i have chocolate mint cakes in my fridge.

89. i found my love for photography.

90. i never thought i would get an A in arts during foundation times.

91. i plan to master adobe photoshop when i'm free.

92. i had spent so much till i realized that money can't buy happiness.

93. i realized that i need to appreciate my family more.

94. i miss my late eldest aunt sometimes. her laugh still lingers in my head.

95. without my dad and mom, i won't be standing here today.

96. i follow most of my dad's characteristics.

97. my mom and i form good shopping partners.

98. i think i have a crush on someone.

99. i'm just gonna wait and see.

100. in the meantime, i wanna live my life.

There you have it. Typed this with wearing only a towel hahaha.

-mel-